Good thing I let gym slide

It was a really good thing this weekend that I let the gym slide on Wednesday and Thursday...I evidently needed to save up my energy for moving my best friend in Houston...that and my migraine was only getting worse at the gym. But yeah...did a LOT of walking and heavy lifting and moving and rearranging and unpacking of wet boxes of books and DVD's and CD's and and and and and...UGH! OK...so I had a Migraine that came and went...I was lucky that when the time came and I was in a major rush to get stuff outta wet boxes yesterday I was able to get it done cos my medication finally helped alleviate the pain...But anyways...we got all their stuff in a apt now...wish I could help with the organization and such...but that's too far of a drive to do that...oh well...I'm sore as Hell today and taking the day off the gym...we're hitting it again tomorrow.

Was bad at lunch but it felt so good...mmm Stover Boys! lol :)

Gym was decent last night

We hit the gym last night and I did a full hour on cardio...felt good but exhausted my legs...lol...half hour on elliptical and half hour on treadmill...burned bout 600 calories...I was satisfied...we'll go back tomorrow most likely and I'll get some cardio plus weights in...least that's the plan.

Tonight I'm going home, getting some mowing done and then gonna cool down and relax in the pool...maybe play some volleyball...anyone want in? I just need to veg but be productive...lol FML sometimes, ya know. But hey...least stuff is getting done and I keep moving. Long as I don't have huge bowls of ice cream each night and watch the rest of my diet...weight should start coming off again...oh I have to back down on chippies too...hmmm...means I have to cut down on something else too...oh well...need to anyways.

So that's my day in a nut shell...eating a yummy fit bar right now...hungry and out of other snacks...and stuck at work till 5...Will report again after we hit the gym again...least I'll try.

OK...Getting back on track and back to normal...whatever that is

OK...I have been gone from here for way too long. Problem was I had a lot going on in the personal world. Late June we got awesome news...we had managed to get me pregnant. I was shocked and excited and scared because I knew with as hard as it was to get there...I knew how high risk it was...So I knew I couldn't blog cos I'd let it slip that I was and the slew of happy wishes and thoughts would come in and too many people would know and it was way too early to tell anyone. It's a good thing I didn't...cos as my luck would have it...mid July, at round 7 weeks into all the fun...I miscarried. We don't know why. We aren't blaming anything and that is sometimes the hardest thing. If I had one thing I could blame, I could avoid that and make sure the next one goes smooth. But obviously sometimes, shit just happens. So understandably, I have been at a loss for many words and I've been fighting to get back to normal, whatever that was...

*Just adding a note...I am not writing this blog for pity or sympathy or any condolences...none of that really ever helps me. I know I am a horrible person to console. I am writing this blog for me and to explain my actions of late if I have been despondent or just MIA or vague in my answers to if I am OK...I know my status updates have been oddly cryptic at times...*

OK...so here we are...I just bared my soul...wasn't sure I could do that to the Web but hey that's life...OK...so where do we go from here...I am back at the gym and I am back at the Dr's this week to start again. I might have put on a bit of weight from my recovery time...emotional eating and all...but that combined with the complete lack of hunger some days...might have balanced out. Who knows. We hit the gym twice this past week and even went on a Friday evening. How's that for progress? We go back tonight and I'm hoping to make it 3 times this week but we will see where things take us. We also have the pool up and running again at home and it's all clean so I'm gonna get to hitting that in the evenings soon.

I'm trying to be more social again...It's just hard to predict what mood I will be in when. For the most part I am OK. I am dealing with this all the best I can. And my dealing is keeping my brain busy. If brain gets bored...thoughts come rolling in and I have to deal with em. I've always been a procrastinator so I like to put em off. I'm taking the only silver lining I can from this experience...At least it's possible and let's hope beyond hope that the next time works out better...cos this has got to be one of the HARDEST things I have had to deal with in my adult life. I am horrible at feeling weak and that's all I feel when I feel this loss. Dr told me in early July to be Cautiously Optimistic...how the Hell does one do that? I'm having to try to make that work in everyday life right now...but least I can do my best to get my eating and my working out back on track and the take control of my life again. Big girl panties on...check!

OK OK...it's been forever

OK...so it's has been a while for me in posting here. No I haven't given up. I'm still trucking along. Some weeks are good...some are worse...some we get to the gym once, some we get there 3 times...who knows. Our lives have been kind of busy lately with our birthday s but that has died down now so back to the grind.

We're heading back to the gym tonight. It'll be a week since we were there. Nikky has joined the gym and is working out with a trainer too so that's helping me still go. :) It's fun to help her out as well as get a good work out for myself. She's always fun to spend any time with...even when we're trying to kill ourselves.

I do need to get back in there...I kind of gorged on food the last few days...it's my birthday...what can I do? lol Chimichanga for lunch yesterday and sushi and Chinese last night...what can I do? Seriously? But Birthday are over and while it is still technically my birthday week and month...I'm going to forgo the usual laziness of June and get back into the swing of the gym. May even still go all next week while Mike's out of town. We will see...lol

Guess that's all I got for now...I'll try to keep posting more soon. I did get a lot of positive feedback this past weekend bout how I'm trimming up and such so that was awesome to hear. It's hard to notice when I see myself daily. Thanks for all the kind and positive words from those of you that I got them from! They mean a ton!

Kisses!

Still going strong

Sorry...I seem to have forgotten to update this thing. We were at the gym last week Wed, Thur and Friday nights. We had to take a break earlier in the week cos Mikey had a neck muscle pull and I didn't want him to re-injure it while on the muscle relaxers.

So I tend to be doing 30-45 minutes of cardio and then 30-45 minutes on the machines down stairs doing a variety of upper body, lower body and ab workouts. It's been fun. :) On Friday I stayed on Cardio cos I figured out SciFi was playing Serenity and that made me all shiny and happy so I stayed there for over an hour. :) Then we went over to Nikky's where I pigged out on veggie pizza. I know cos it's veggie does NOT make the pan crust healthy but sometimes you just gotta go with the flow.

Saturday I wanted to be productive but I just didn't have it in me after a LATE LATE night with friends. Plus there was rain moving in so I couldn't really mow...well the rain never hit us and I felt bad for not mowing...So on Sunday, after another late night with another friend visiting...I tackled the back yard. The rain in the recent weeks made half of the back a total bear to mow. I took a 5 hour Energy and kicked ass on the first 2/3rds of the back yard without a break. That other half...UGH...tried to kill me. But I muscled through it and got it done and even weed-eated. Great cardio work and leg work and forearm work. When you can't make it to the gym...make what you got your gym. :)

So we are hopefully back on schedule this week for the gym. Let's hope my hormones can stay in check this week and I can get through it. Nikky may just join the gym so that will help me out a ton! :) I'm really seeing the results with Mikey's bulking up phase. It is not overnight but he's getting there. :)

OK...that's it for now. I'll try another update with how I'm doing later on in the week.

Doing it on my own and it's going ok

OK...so I fired Wade...Fired is a harsh word but I have completely quit that track. We Went to the gym last night, forked over a ton of cash...well credit card cash...for a full year's paid in full membership for me and Mikey to the gym...then on top of that I got to pay for his 2.5 months of training with Wade. UGH...if that wasn't enough of a work out...least my pocket book is slimmer now...lol

I then went and worked on cardio. I did about 40 minutes up there, mostly on elliptical and some on treadmill. Then I struck out and hit the gym floor by myself. Mike was off working with Wade and I just wanted to do a little bit of machine work as well. I did some of my favorite arm machines and then even pulled in an ab work out. I didn't overdo it cos I was alone down there, and therefor I was a bit overwhelmed. I mean I know a lot of the machines but not all of them. I don't want to fall in a rut...I need a work out buddy for when Mike is training...I have a friend who I text on the phone but it's not quite the same...lol...Mike's making more friends than me in the gym so he's more likely to have a work out buddy...and he probably needs a good male work out buddy to help him pump the major iron...I'm not much of a spotter when it comes to weight I can't even lift myself. LMAO

So we go back Wednesday night cos Wade told him to not even come in today cos he worked him really hard last night and his muscles need to rest. So we'll see how it goes when it's the two of us on the floor. I know Mike needs to do other work outs that don't really include me but it's important that I'm there and trying. And that I don't allow myself to get too overwhelmed.

So...YAY! We have a year's membership paid...can't back down now! And I'm down to my lowest weight in a long time...I'm bout where I was close to 2 years ago now when I plateaued. I can't wait to shatter that and keep going down. Slowly but surely...slowly but surely. hehehe

Feel like a weight's been lifted off my shoulders

So...Went to the gym last night...first time in pretty much 2 weeks that I actually was feeling good and ready to work out. Got there and went upstairs and did my thing on the elliptical and some on the treadmill. The place was packed. It's the last week of the fitness challenge thing that I wasn't exactly selected for so all machines were busy. But I squeezed in on one and did my thing. Felt good to be back on the cardio equipment and only got to burn like 400 calories...but we got there kind of late.

Then comes the dread part. We had to go down to meet with Wade. I just don't have the heart to make that fun anymore. I tried. Wade started me off slow and I knew he knew better than to push me after me being gone for such a long time from the weight training part of working out. So I did wall squats with the big ball on my back...not too bad...my knee bitched a bit but I could deal. Then he brought out two step boxes on top of each other and wanted me to do some bounces or something...again...not too bad and did it without much complaint other than the need to hold onto the wall so I didn't lose my balance. This whole time he's off having Mike work specific muscles to keep up with his training.

Then, he has me do the Susan Summer's leg machines...they basically do the same thing as her little flaky device. There are two machines. One that works the outside muscles and one that does the inside muscles. The inside muscles machine was acting flaky and wouldn't' let me set the resistance. So there are pads that go on the inside of your knee and you have to get your knees to the furthest possible while not causing you pain position, set the resistance and then squeeze in,back out, in, back out. I've used this machine before. But this time I couldn't get it to set my resistance...so Wade comes over to assist. I tell him that that's as far back as my knees go...I'm in the machine...the little F*cker pushed them a bit more...and if you know me...my hips can be a big pain on me...I almost screamed out in pain cos OUCH! That I did not quit over. I pushed thru, just didn't ask him for his help anymore trying to set the damn thing.

Then he had me on a leg press/squat inclined machine. It was really quite easy but it was pushing it towards the end of a set...he tried to be slick and sneak in more weight. I stood my ground and said no...made him admit to adding more weight and remove it. I know...my bitchy-whiny side was really starting to come thru. But after the hip thing I was already a bit ticked off. So he removes the added weight and I finish out the second set. So, did I mention I'm up in this machine on a big incline...not the easiest to get in and out of. My face is sweating, my glasses are fogging...I ask for my towel. He says, No. He wants me to do another set first. I say if I have to get up to get it, I'm done. He still doesn't get it. he waits till I sit up and am half out to reach for it. I take the towel, grab my water bottle and tell him I'm done. I meant the machine at first, but I quickly decided, no...I was done with the workout for the day...least with him. I don't like to be bossed. I really hate it. I know I made a whiny-bitchy scene...and I don't really care.

Wade tried...he decided we'd move on to Abs...for some reason I like to do Abs...but no...I was done...I hopped on a treadmill and told him to continue on with Mike. I cranked the speed and the incline up and I just booked it for the next 15 minutes or so till they were done. A few minutes in on the treadmill he even came over to offer my headphones...but my stubborn-ness said I didn't need em. He left them there as a peace offering I guess...but I didn't touch em.

Now again...I will totally admit that I am a whiny-bitchy-princess who really likes things her way. If you know me, I'm not shy bout this fact. I don't like to be bossed. I don't like to be told No. I like to be in control. If you can call those faults, those are mine. I'm VERY stubborn and have to have things my way. I've never liked gyms and am usually totally intimidated by them.

I have gotten over my fear of the gym. I actually love to work out now (as long as I'm not a hormonal mess that breaks down in tears of frustration on the treadmill, but that's only one week of the month so far). I initially took to the trainer. I thought it was great. We had fun conversation, we got some good workouts. I needed that structure and instruction on what to work on and which machines do what. I got that now.

Mike will probably continue with Wade at least once a week...we're gonna figure out the cost involved tonight I guess, and I'm getting a membership for the "family" and we will still be going to the gym. I have not given up and I'm not stopping this journey. I see the big picture and I am still heading on that path. I just no longer care to have a guide. I got the basics and I have Mike to fall back on if I get lost or need support.

So Wade, not like you have the time in your busy life to read this...but it's not you...it's Me. Enjoy Mikey. :)

And I'm out!

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

OK...so this week is going about how I expected it to go. It's my bad week hormonally due to my meds right now...If you are in the vicinity of my you know this means me crying for absolutely no freaking reason and then me getting pissed off that I can't control it, so I cry harder, dry up...rinse repeat. Hormones in general can be hard on a woman...but chemically induced hormones on a woman who is not really used to having any at all cos her cycle is so far out of whack...yeah...so my hormones are like an Indy race car to someone that barely knows how to drive. Very very frustrating.

So this week...Monday we took off from working out cos Mike's eye was bothering him pretty bad and I was thinking he'd have to go to the eye doc before the day was through and somehow I think eyes are important for the working out process so you don't get hit or trip over a busy gym. So we canceled and postponed Monday's workout to Tuesday. Not that either of us liked the idea of 3 back to back workouts.

Tuesday...I really shouldn't have gotten out of bed. I knew from the get-go that it was gonna be a bad day. But I had certain things I knew I had to take care of at work yesterday so we came in. Hormones ebbed and flowed all day...just had me in a generally depressed state of mind. By the end of the day I was feeling better and thought I could proceed with working out. We hit Subway for our pre-workout meal and then hit the gym. And I was fine...I thought. Got on a treadmill and didn't even last 20 minutes...I could feel the stupid tears for no reason creeping up on me and I knew I wouldn't be able to stop em. So I told Mike I would be back at 8 to get him but I had to leave. I went and hung out at Nikky's and we chatted and cried and I wasn't forced to hide myself in a bathroom stall to avoid all the concerned glances and questions at the gym. Poor JJ I know was confused why normally Happy Audrey was sitting on his couch crying one minute and laughing the next...he even stopped by to give me a hug to comfort me. That was sweet. So I left there and went and got Mike and we went home where I had to self medicate to get myself calm and not constantly weepy...I HATE weepy.

Today...it's Wednesday...who knows what the rest of the day will bring. I didn't want to get out of bed again this morning and I still say I should be in bed curled up with the blanket over my head and away from people today...but alas, I had more work I knew would have to get done today. So here I am...muddling my way through the day. I managed to not cry while meeting with a student and I'll call that a win...cos it was bubbling up under the surface...again...I just can't completely control this crap. I guess I can a little bit but just not completely.

I want to get back in the habit of working out. I don't want the last week I have with a trainer to be a cop-out week where I don't go at all. It may be how it goes but who knows. I tried to use this blog as a way to reach out to Wade so he'd maybe freaking understand me better but I guess he stopped reading. Mike said it didn't sound like he had taken the time to read it before last night. Oh well. So much for that helping. It does help for me to be able to just vent on here and know someone at least is reading it...even if it's not the trainer who needs to be reading it.

I guess that's it for my whiny report today. I think I'll just move this box and crawl under my desk for the afternoon...if you need me...that's where I'll be till 5.

Last night wasn't any fun

OK...I've mentioned before...I tend to like a bit of control in my life...and working out is no different. Last night I worked out...I went by myself cos Mike had to stay home and get some work done round the house. This blog is mostly so I can voice why I had an issue last night. The longer I stew about it the more annoyed I get. So it's time I do this and get it off my chest so I can go ahead and enjoy the rest of my weekend...lol....Party tomorrow night...Wooohooo! Hopefully we're doing dinner with Nikky and her fam tonight and playing some rockband...that's if they get back safely from Austin.

OK...so last night...I get there early of course to do my cardio workout. I did 45 on treadmill, 30 on Elliptical, and 10 again on Treadmill. Total of 750 calories burned. Go Me! (And I have contemplated maybe I'm doing too much prior to meeting with Wade and that's putting me in a pissy mood from the get-go with him...who knows...but with the time schedule...it's the only way we can really get the cardio in.)

So I thought I was feeling good. It's 7pm and I go to meet up with Wade. And I know he's probably a little concerned bout going one on one with me...and I get that...I come off gruff...so I think he tried to take the offensive and be positive and announce to me..."You are not allowed to quit today!" And to some that is inspiration and is challenging...to me...and my personality...it puts me on the defensive and makes me wanna go back to the locker room to get my shit and go. We bantered back and forth a bit and he whittled it down to He would like it if I didn't quit today. So I started off. Did an arm workout and then he wanted me to do step knee lifts on a step higher than I've done before...when I had to held onto the bar for support so I didn't fall...he looked on disapprovingly. I didn't do another set of those. I went back and did 2 more sets of the Arm things. We did some other stuff...I don't remember it all...my head was getting fuzzy cos I was still annoyed.

And yes...before you ask...I know his job is to train me and push me to get into shape. I just don't deal well with being pushed. Which is why it's taken me this long to get to the point where I am with a trainer and working out in a gym. And yes...I know that me not doing the workouts to his liking isn't hurting him...it's only hurting myself. I'm not a complete idiot.

We did have some decent conversation and I calmed down a bit. We talked bout how much fun Mikey was having and where he was planning on going with his workout and such. We even compared hunting stories and joked of his need to get a concealed gun license cos of crazies like me.

Well we get to the end of our time. He has me doing some arm and back exercise with a 15 pound bar...not heavy...but my back isn't tolerating to that great so I stop in the first set. I finish the set with a modified version of the exercise. Then it was holding the bar, one overhand grip, the other underhand, doing squats and rotating the bar when you come up. I did the left hand side first...barely was able to finish 8...then on to the right...at 4, my right bicep said I don't F*cking think so and I set the bar down. Sorry I listen very closely to my body. Wade tried very hard to make me finish that set...wasn't happening.I set the bar down on it's end and when he wouldn't stop trying to make me finish I took my hand off the bar...now I did not mean for it to head in his direction but it did...luckily he has fast reflexes otherwise that might have hurt him pretty bad...it would have hit right in the jewels. after he caught it and had the look of shock and was saying..."What if I hadn't caught that, Audrey?" over and over...I laughed very heartily. I know...I'm an awful person isn't a valid cop-out but I was done for the night.

I couldn't take anymore. He put me on the offensive from the start, he at one point "Shhh'd" me...and all the disapproving looks and comments...I was done. I signed my name on his done sheet and left. As I drove home I just got angrier. Isn't working out supposed to give you feel good endorphins? Somedays it does for me...others...it makes me a very ticked off woman. Maybe it's hormones. I don't know. I was forced to self medicate to calm myself down when I got home.

So long story short...I don't do well at being put on the defensive, telling me I can't do something is not a good approach to make me productive, & I did NOT have a fun time last night. We'll see how Monday goes. I may just let Mike finish out our paid for spots and just do cardio while he does or go hang with Nikky...Last night really put a bad taste in my mouth...and maybe it's hormones and I'll be all hunky dory on Monday...who knows. I just hope Wade reads this so we don't have a repeat. It's just not in my personality to give in...it's just not.

And again...yes I know I'm whiny and special needs...but that doesn't seem to be changing anytime soon. And yes I know if I stop working out I'm only hurting myself...but there are other places to do my working out too... Last night was not fun...

OK...on to happy thoughts for tonight and the weekend!

Can Wade handle me all on my own?

OK...so it's Thursday...It's a work out day and I get to go alone today. Mike is at home taking care of stuff I wanted done before the party...mowing and organizing the outside and such. So I have nothing holding me back on being able to torture Wade! Wooohooo! Are you ready Wade? I don't think you are. LOL

So work out was fine yesterday...Wade pushed us both...gave Mike a lot more weight to work on and it really had him sweating. He's upping his game on us and expects us to do the same...lol...I still laugh. So we were getting close to the time to be done and I wanted to do some ab work outs. I had a specific one in mind...Wade had other plans...So I let Mikey try it to see how hard it would be...and yeah...I walked away from it. I went and did the ab coaster. Did two sets and then Wade wanted me to do wall squats...I leaned on the wall and said...I'm done. He thought I was kidding. LMAO. I know I'm so difficult some days.

We're doing arms and upper body tonight...we'll see how that goes. Keep Wade in your thoughts...this may get rough on him. hehehehe

So I've been keeping a good food diary lately. Looking up calories, fat, Sat fat, sodium, net carbs and protein information. I NEVER wanted to be counting calories. And I know I won't do it forever...it's too time consuming. But we all know I get bored at work so it's kind of been fun to use some time to do this research. It puts you in a different mind frame when you are hungry for your next snack. hehehe I'm already making changes...and I think I'm seeing the results from that. I think I'm still ending up with a calorie deficit at the end of the day...specially the days I work out. I mean if I get in right around 2000 calories and I burn close to 1000 in a work out between cardio and the weight training...that leaves me with a net of 1000 calories...and I think my body needs more. The last dietitian wanted me on 1300-1700 and that was prior to us working out the way we are. I don't know. Right now the weight is dropping, I seem to have lost bout 2.6 pounds since Monday morning. And this morning I weighed after I ate some eggs and such and drank some tea...usually I wake, pee, and weigh...but I forgot this morning cos I was in a hurry and running late.so I weighed before I got dressed. We'll see what the morning says.

But long story short...I hate the idea of counting calories and I'm sure a lot of people out there really don't ever want to do it either...but it's been a truly eye opening experience. If you are looking to lose weight and you have a little bit of time and excel knowledge...make a spreadsheet...it's really a great tool. If you want help or a template, just let me know. There are a lot of great resources out there on the interwebitude that can tell you all kinds of information bout meals and regular food items, you know if it doesn't have a package. A few great restaurants have all kinds of great details on their nutritional information too...Jason's Deli is my favorite right now...and OMG...their Tomato Basil soup is to die for!

Oh...Wade has us both upping our protein intake. Mikey is on a higher upgrade of protein than I am but I had my first protein shake last night...and I have to admit...it was yummy. Had it mixed with skim milk and yummy! Not as yummy as my Atkins Shakes but a close second. :) Actually managed to get 124 grams of Protein yesterday...and ate very little meat. Go Me!

I guess that's it...bout time for me to go torture the poor young Wade...hehehehe

It's Hump day!

OK...so I've been bored and been too busy watching Hulu to update my blog...how sad am I? lol But here I am...ran out of things to watch for today at least. So it's Wednesday...we work out tonight. We had a pretty good work out on Monday. We got there early enough again for a good hour of cardio warm up...did 30 minutes on the elliptical...took a potty break and was gonna do treadmill...but you know what...elliptical was really flowing for me Monday so I did another 30 minutes on it. It felt really good. :) So I burned what the machine tells me as 775 calories there...just in my warm up. ROCK ON!

Then we had a pretty decent workout with Wade. I think he finally figured out how to instruct me to do squats without the back of my left knee feeling like it's going to pop...some tendon back there is annoying and does NOT like squats. I'd take my Right knee to be the one that would give me grief...but alas...it's the Left. But now I will pay more attention to toes straight and ass out first then knees. We'll see. He keeps telling me to do it like I'm dropping it on the dance floor...he does NOT understand what that means. Maybe we should got dancing with him sometime so he can see what the hell I mean when I drop it like it's hot. lol

We did a good mixture and I bitched less than normal but was still full of fun loving banter. And...get this...Mike is staying home Thursday and Friday to take care of some house stuff before the party this Saturday...so Thursday is a work out day...we got to break it to Wade that he may just be getting me on Thursday. The look of concern on his face was priceless. :) He's been really getting into the whole getting Mikey built up and he's been able to use that as a way to avoid me more I think. He's still scared of me and my moods. I promised him if I was in a mood on Thursday I would call ahead and cancel. That seemed to ease his fears but I still think he's thinking Mikey will come with anyway. I know I can do it without Mikey there and I know Mikey will be getting enough of a work out mowing and organizing the carport and such to make up for missing the work out.

So I'm really looking forward to this weekend. It feels like forever since we've hosted a good party at our place. This one is shaping up to look really great. We'll have a great group...some newbies and some oldies and some oldies from two different groups may get to meet and I'm stoked bout my friends meeting each other. :) I know I'm odd...but it's gonna be fun...I swear damnit. If you're not having fun at my party...you're just not doing it right. :) hehehehe

OK...guess that's it...here's to working out tonight...getting all hot and sweaty and then going to HEB for groceries in work out clothes again...hell if people wanna look at me funny for wearing my work out gear to HEB...let em...least it proves I'm trying to do something bout my condition. LOL...F*ck em and feed em cheese!

Oh...almost forgot the funniest part of Monday night's workout...we went outside for the last 10-15 minutes...and there was this adorable cotton tail that was handing out by the fence. Wade decided he could catch it...so he went running after it...Mike said he got close...I have to give it to Wade...he's fast! Then the rabbit appeared again...and I talked Wade into trying again...LMAO...was soooo worth his attempt...I needed the laugh...He did this slow creeping crawl on his finger tips and tiptoes...OMG...so incredibly worth it. Alas, he wasn't able to catch it again. I just don't think he was putting in 100% effort there. We'll see if the bunny comes back again tonight!

OK...that's it now...I swear!

It was a good week...have to say

So sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I'd like to say I was busy with work or something but I was busy watching TV at work when I didn't have cases. But the cases were few and far between. Then on Thursday I woke up with a migraine and ended up staying home until work out time. It went away around 3 or 4 in the afternoon so it was safe. And then Friday was a half day. Gotta love religious holidays for at least getting me out of work somewhat. So Happy Zombie Jesus Weekend to all those that care. lol Got tired quickly of all the Easter stuff this year. Guess it's just me.

OK...so working out this weekend. I think it went rather well. I didn't fight Wade very much...least not like I have been. I just gave him some very weird looks at times. We did legs on Wednesday and he tried to make it where I couldn't walk on Thursday...maybe he was half to blame for the migraine. But I'll let him slide and blame the wonders of hormones instead...otherwise the coincidence of it all would be just weird. But yeah, we did a lot of new leg workouts...then he made me do some Ab stuff...least I think it was Wednesday...I know it wasn't Thursday...He worked the side Abs. Standing up, holding a weight in one hand...and dropping that hand for 20 and then switch to do the other side. That hurt is just now going away. lol But it felt good.

On Thursday, my legs didn't even want to make it up the stairs to go do cardio. So I thought I would take it easy and do a bike instead of elliptical and treadmill...but the calories per minute was so sad that I gave up after 10 minutes and only 60 calories burned. Screw that. I need to burn more. So I went and did 45 minutes on the treadmill instead. Think I ended up with 450 on the treadmill. Not as much as usual but the legs just were not up for the elliptical. I didn't eat my usual calorie intake on Thursday since we were home...and for some reason, I just can't eat as often as I do at work. So we went to Subway afterwards to try to make up some calories. But we did arms on Thursday and Wade had a few new things to try. He's really starting to bulk up on the weights for Mikey. Our goal is to have him looking like he belongs on the Wrestling circuit in a few months. Guess we're gonna have to look into shaving him too...lol...that should be fun. He assures me it won't be a big deal. I know it'll look great and I've been harping on him to do it for years...but now that it's a reality...should be interesting.

So that was my week of working out. It was good. I think I did very well. I barely fought...I'm sure Wade would say otherwise but my fights weren't serious. This weekend I'm focusing on sewing and cleaning for the party next weekend. I was going to mow...but I think I'll wait till later in the week. I don't have much I want to mow. The weight is coming off slowly. I like to think I'm burning fat but replacing it with muscle which is why the weight digits aren't going down. Don't ruin my illusion. lol Had lunch with a friend on Friday who I haven't seen in quite a few months. He told me it over obvious that I was slimming down. I'll take his word for it. It's hard to notice on a day to day basis. And I didn't let Wade do measurements cos all I cared about was the weight to come down...but now I'm curious...damnit. Oh well. Guess pictures will tell the tale. I want to do a photo shoot soon so hopefully we'll see some changes in those.

OK...till next time...MUAH!

Riding a high right now

We had a great work out last night. OK...I did...Mike was still rather exhausted but I think he had a good work out too. He's really sleepy today...he should have stayed home. I'm having some coffee cos I'm getting addicted again but I'm not using it to wake up. I swear...lol

So, of course last ngiht we got to the gym good and early, straight from work cos what else can we do since we live so far out of the way...And I did 35 on the elliptical and that accounts to bout 400 calories burned! Woohoo! Then I got on the treadmill and did another 300 calories in the next 35 or so minutes. I was feeling the burn and having fun with it. On the elliptical, I even did speed intervals again...but this time I did 2 minutes at a time instead of 1. Then one time I just went to see how fast I could get it going...and wow...that was a shocker...and hard to stop.

Then we went and met with Wade. Evidently yesterday was Arms Day. That's all we really did. I was in a very cheerful/Evil mood so I was having fun. My arms are a bit rubbery today but no major pain yet. They are resting. He really pushed me on doing some push-ups...and I had to adjust his bar placement on my last set...cos I was going to fail basically and I only had to do 15...and that was working the arms to their fail point, not sure if he realized that...he's sneaky so who knows. For our final bit, we went to go do a little Ab workout. He has high hopes of what he thinks I can do. So yeah, I tried and that was a no go. So instead he had me do some slow scissor kicks until fail. Yeah he wanted 4 sets...he got 3 and I said new exercise please...lol...and I got to do an Ab machine so that was least good.

I was impressed with my attitude and my stamina...even if they didn't show how impressed they were...I was happy with myself so it's all good. On the Scissor kicks, when doing them, I didn't feel it in the Abs at all. And I'm like...something ain't working here...but man...afterwards when we went shopping at HEB...OK...I could so feel it then. But today...I'm golden. So it's all good.

This weekend was fun. Saturday I shocked myself and was able to mow the ENTIRE back 1/2 acre in 3 hours. Usually this feat takes me all day or at least 6 hours or so cos of all the breaks I have to take. But not this time. Wooohooo! Things are looking up for me in the stamina department so it's all good. Then we went to town, had some Freebirds (who has Carnita's now and they are SOOOOOOOOOO Yummy!), went to the movies, drooled over Vin in Fast & Furious with the Nikky and Roger, then had Pei Wei, then went home and vegged and then had my leftovers from Pei Wei. :) Leftovers rock. Really expands the dining out experience.

Sunday was Wrestle Mania...and YAY! We had it in HD at the house on our beautimus TV. We had some friends over and had a grand ole time! It was a late night but it was a fun one. We had this huge awesome pork loin that we put on the pit and it was super yummy! We had some slightly overcooked Chicken wings and of course my Cheese Dip with sausage in it. I may or may not have had a moment with some chips and spinach dip as well as a bit of yogurt and granola...but nothing too dangerous is in my house anymore...worst stuff was the Cheesy Pork.

We did eat Cazadore's yesterday for lunch and I did have some chips and Cheesy beef but that wasn't my fault. I wanted Jason's Deli. I got out-voted by the line at Jason's. But I did good and had spinach enchiladas. Then after work out last night I was bad and we had some quick food from Wendy's. But seeing as I burned at least 1000 calories last night and lost .6 pounds from yesterday morning, I'm not too guilty feeling at this time. I was last night though. But I'm over it this morning after the scale was nice to me.

Guess that's it. I hope Wade finally reads my comments on him from last Friday. I was hurt he didn't read them before our work out last night. But I won't let it bother me. :) Hopefully this good positive attitude can last thru-out the week of working out. That would be a first. LOL. But hey, I got started on an excellent note. :) OK...done tooting my own horn...hehehehe

A few revalations...

OK...so Wednesday and Thursday working out was fine. Thursday was a bit worse than Wednesday, but overall it was OK. It's brought to mind a lot of control issues that I have. But I'll get to that in a bit.

I don't even really remember all we did Wednesday night. I know I only quit on one thing merely because it made me feel stupid as hell for doing it. I opted to do lunges instead of repeating that annoying ass slow side crouch walk thingy. On Thursday we started off just fine...we had over an hour of cardio prior to actually starting the work out...maybe that's what drained my mood...I don't know. But we were going along really well and I promised Mike we would go outside if Wade wanted to...and we did...however Wade had crazy plans and I had nothing to do with it. He wanted these frog jumps, Audrey no frog jump...least not till she loses 50 more pounds...sorry. He then wanted side walking squats while tossing a ball back and forth between me and Mike...yeah...hip screamed at me and Audrey no do hip screaming. Then...he wanted increment running...I barely got out of second gear before my shins said...I don't think so...Audrey not doing this either. So well Mike had fun doing a few exercises but we quickly went back inside where Wade couldn't seem to suggest any workouts that I could complete...so I just started doing some of my own. Evidently I was in a mood.

I have to say now that Wade has informed me that he's finally reading this thing. I am glad and I really hope it helps him understand me better. I *know* I am a horrendous client to have to deal with. I fight him on almost everything he suggests. I would not blame him if he went and complained that he has the hardest client to work with. I'll back him up on it. I simply know what I can and can't do some days. He has to admit that most days I banter with him on things but I do everything he asks...except the stairs...my poor shins and all. I at least try it. Give it a good shot. But this brings me to my control issues...

I like to be in control 95% of the time. This is probably partly cos of my personality and probably partly from crappy past relationships where I lost my self identity and my self worth to at least one asshole who mentally and verbally abused me. I was virtually beaten down and was a shell of who I am now. And I won't give that up again. I can be a bit much some days but I do like who I am. I have friends that will vouch for the fact that I'm vibrant and full of life and can be a rather confident person. And I like that. I won't change it.

I made a mistake on Wednesday by telling Wade that I could walk all over him and that that was great...after a short bit of thinking...I realized my error and took the foot out of my mouth and reworded things to state that he, as my trainer, is an excellent fit for me. I need a bit of structure, but too much structure and I rebel. If he had been strict like a drill sergeant and not given me options...I wouldn't be there right now. I would have walked the Hell out and either went and sat on my ass or I would have found another trainer elsewhere. Most likely I would have sat on my ass and evidently really would have disappointed Mikey. I'm glad I stayed, not just for Mikey's sake...but for mine too. I am actually really looking forward to working out now. I know when I can push my body and I know the days when I just can't. I enjoy being self-aware like that. Wade is an excellent fit for us cos he knows how to push us, how to challenge us, but he won't force me to do anything. I don't know if it's his tone or just the way he's figured out how to work with me. I'm sure it makes his job harder cos he's having to think more about options that I won't fight him so much on. But I know he misses it when I'm not so argumentative...he doesn't like scary silent Audrey. I don't either. Trust me Wade, I'm not just saying this cos I know you are reading now. It's the honest truth. Thank you for putting up with me. I know it's not easy.

I guess that's all the revelations I have for today...I look forward to mowing the back 40 tomorrow at least and cleaning the house so we can have a kick-ass Wrestle Mania party on Sunday! Hope everyone has a good weekend.

April Foll's day but not foolin

So here it is a new month...Didn't play any April Fool's jokes...not really in the mood for em. Glad no one really had any for me. So it's Wednesday, Humpday...workout day! Work has actually been a little busy...stupid bad Aggie's getting in the way of my bill paying, TV watching and blog writing. Can't understand why they rather me do actual work instead of my work. I don't get it. LOL

OK...So I just actually scanned back thru and saw people have actually left me some comments! I'm touched. Thanks! I'll try to be more observant of comments coming thru. I really thought this blogger would send me notices of comments. Oh well, maybe I have to tweak something in the settings for that. But seeing comments and knowing people are reading and maybe I'm helping to inspire someone...that rocks! That's why I'm doing this. Cos we all know...I'm a giver. LMAO...OK...that was funny. But no, I feel good to be contributing some way out there to the greater good.

So Monday we worked out with our "friend" Wade. He decided we weren't going to be counting reps...we were gonna be working at a faster pace...get more cardio into the workout. Forget the fact that I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 30 on the treadmill and burned 620 calories prior to starting...but hey...I'm game to try something new. I did crap out at the end. It was an exercise I can't do very well so I just gave up on my last 2 sets of 4...I didn't think that was so bad. Wade tried to guilt me with a pouty face...that won't work when I have my mind made up. He'll learn. LOL...I think he seriously thinks I hate him. I love striking fear in those around me. :) The fact I keep coming back and am signing up for another month of his kind of fun...that should say something. I haven't asked for a replacement trainer, which is simply cos I'd hate to train a whole new one. Wade was so easy to break in. hehehehe

But Monday night was actually somewhat fun. I just hope this allergy/sinus crap I'm dealing with is just that and not strep like my poor friend Nikky. She can't seem to stay well these days. It's driving the both of us bonkers. And...I can't afford to get sick. We have Wrestle Mania at our place on Sunday. I got company coming over and cleaning and mowing and such to do. Plus I don't have much saved time at work here lately from dealing with my sickness after we got back from Vegas.

So I'm gonna push thru tonight...see what happens...keep pushing the water and maybe I can flush this crap out if it is some bug. Not give it a chance to settle in. Plus I have more sewing to do on this quilt I'm working on. Will need to deliver it in the next couple of weeks. It's not 5 yet and I want it to be so I can get out of this boring place. No Nikky means it's extra boring. LOL...OK...I'm out for now...will try to write again tomorrow.

MUAH!

feeling MUCH Better

I really didn't believe I could basically force myself into a good mood...but I did. Rock on! Kicked the hormones for now. Went and had a really good work out last night and no one really made me feel like a moron for the day before of quitting and the whole crying and hiding fiasco. Did 30 minutes on the elliptical and another 20 or 30 on the treadmill...I forget...another 500 calories or so burned, so rock on...

I can NOT wait till it warms up and I can #1 get back to working out in my pool too...I'm such a water baby and #2 get to mow my damn yard...ok...my acre of weeds but still they need it...specially after all this rain this week and maybe #3 we can get into a routine of maybe working our or playing sports with friends...been forever since we played tennis or hoops or anything...volleyball net on the pool too so that's fun!

Still in limbo land on life right now but trying my best not to focus on that. My weekend either be great or it can be hellish...we'll see which way it turns out. Wish I could will myself to be fine if things go south in Limbo-land but we'll just have to see and play it by ear. If things stay positive we may get out of town Sat night and meet some people...who knows...maybe they'll come to us...We do Big Event in the morning with the Nikky and we have a strategy meeting tonight at 5 to make sure we're all on the same page for that cos it may prove to be hectic. Who knows...first time doing this thing...trying to give of myself more...working on that side of Karma for a change.

OK...think that's it for now...I'll probably be quiet till Monday or Tuesday on here...who knows how this weekend will go...I may need to vent. We'll see. Thanks for reading if you're reading. It does mean a lot to me that someone out there other than just my wonderful Hubby Mikey is reading this so just let me know if you're reading and supporting me or if you are a horrible person that just doesn't care...ok...don't let me know that. I may already think it already and I don't want those thoughts confirmed. LMAO :) See...much better mood today. :) MUAH!

Rough Patch

OK...so I think I've emerged from a rough patch I've had the last couple of days. Hormones are on some kind of overload and I feel like I'm in limbo...but least I quit crying. :) Turned my frown upside down and stickin to it...we hope. lol

OK...so last night was bad...bad bad bad...hormones overtook me and I could not right myself...the ship sank bad. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and 15 on the treadmill and I was wiped. We took a break before the real work out and I did the first two exercises...and quit...just up and quit. I let Mike finish his but I couldn't. I sat there like a lump for a bit then I thought the sauna would help. Sweated my ass off for 5 minutes and didn't make any progress. Went and stood outside the front door just as the storm really blew in. I couldn't run from my internal storm however much I tried. I cried and watched the rain. I couldn't seem to hide from people. They kept trying to make sure I was OK. I know they are sweet but I needed to be left alone. So then I hid out in the locker room bathroom till Mike texted me that he was done. It was a BAD night hormonally for me. No real reason at all to cry...nothing...but I couldn't stop which pissed me off and made me cry more. Got home and finally was able to calm myself down...but woke up this morning mad at myself and mad at the world. Finally round lunch I snapped and decided that I was going to get back in control. And I think I am. Who knows.

But for this moment...I'm good. Not ecstatic or happy but I'm good. I'm going to try and push myself to get through our work out tonight...no matter what. Don't even think I'm getting on the scale tonight...don't need that added stress.

Here's to hoping Wade doesn't ask too many questions bout yesterday and takes at face value that I'm fine. Not 100%...can't talk bout it out loud...or tears may come back. Not 100%...but I'm good...and for now I'm fine with that. :)

Lost count of days...it's a longer Journey than days anyway!

OK...so it's been close to a week since I wrote on here. Last week was a tough one for me workout wise. Tuesday was emotional to no end...thanks to wonderful hormones and Wednesday was just plain painful! But yay! I am healed, I say! By Thursday afternoon I was in the pool helping Mikey scrub it down so I can get some use out of it some day soon. So all better now! And I even used my mother-in-law's treadmill over the weekend even though it was loud and annoying and the treadmill was loud too. hehehehehe Always the comedian, that's me.

So we have been weighing ourselves every morning at the house all natural with no added weight. I think first thing in the morning is the best...no extra food weight and such. So I had been watching my weight come down. It was exciting. But Monday when I got to the gym and weighed myself before shoes...I was so happy...down 5 pounds since last Monday! Even if that scale weighs me a few pounds heavier than at home...it is later in the day and I do have clothes on...so that could account for the 2-3 pound difference. Then I went to the doc office this morning...and they only show 6 pounds for the month...hmmm...but hey...I'm down 15 pounds in the past two months. Wooohooo! Time for new clothes shopping! My pants are starting to become a bit loose!

Last night we did our normal 45 minutes or so of good cardio. I was proud of Mikey...he's been miserable with allergies and I didn't think he'd be able to play through given the mood and state of mind he's been in all day yesterday. But it seems like as long as he's exercising, eating or sleeping...he's fine. Soon as we quit any of those 3 things...he's miserable again. He's trying a new drug today and so far it seems better. But I burned bout 500 calories on cardio for that portion of the work out and Wade had some interesting new machines for us to try...lol...But I made it thru with only a few slight distractions. :) But I did find out that Wade missed the Sassy me that was missing on Tuesday when my hormones acted all flaky. I knew he would. I know I can be a difficult whiney bitch when I work out...OK...probably more often than that...but my playful banter and arguing is greatly missed when it's not there. He said he was seriously scared of me cos evidently only Bitch was shining through. LMSAO!

So we are thinking now that we will do one more month with Wade...and then go to just a gym membership. It's really been helpful lately and I think I still need the structure of a personal trainer. We're gonna try an experiment and go away from the supplements that we were buying from the doctor's office. I just can't say for sure they were worth ALL the money that we were paying for them...plus all our other vitamins on top of that...I think we already had a good handle on what vitamins we needed. I think the only one I may miss is the shot one...but not sure I'll even miss that. We'll play it by ear and see...cos that's $300 for 2 months worth of shots for the both of us really...and that's a lot when we have the personal trainer and I think we worked it out and it cost like 30 or 40 bucks per pound I lost...with everything we were paying for and that's factoring Mikey's health benefits in that as well. The Dietician was outrageous on cost for what she was doing for us since we knew what to do...we just needed more supervision...and once a month...sorry...not enough supervision for $100-150 a month...and then $100 worth of supplements a month for the 2 of us and then the shots on top of that...a costly experiment that worked but didn't work. lol I can do this with just the gym and trainer damnit...and our regular regimine of vitamins.

So things are looking good. Down 15 pounds since the end of January...should have seen what my starting weight was in late December...maybe I'll call and see if they can tell me that over the phone...and to think that includes the trip to Vegas and everything...I'm on a good stretch...we'll see what other good comes my way... :)

Day 18...pain made me take a break

OK...I've dealt with some pain and soreness in the last couple of weeks...I know I have...but this morning took the cake...and last night too. We got to the gym early again to do some cardio before our work out. I was still sore from the dropping it like it was hot "Deep Clean & Jerk's" outside Monday night with Wade...but I wasn't that bad off...so I got on the elliptical for a good 30 minutes. My first time lasting that long and I was doing interval training. It wasn't that bad. Then we did a bit of a cool down on the treadmills cos the bikes were busy. My mood was doing fine and I was pushing thru just fine...Then Wade came up to get us and I don't know what happened to my mood. Something snapped for absolutely no freaking reason and I was in a pissy mood. A crying mood even. I had to take a break a couple of exercises in to go in the bathroom and have a good cry. And I've still yet to figure out why. Stupid hormones.

So I made it thru the workout without my usual cheery banter. I mean I tried but it wasn't there. I did everything he asked, no complaints, no laughter...no problem. It totally sucked. And I sucked it up and muscled thru every exercise from squats to stepping, to arm work to lower ab pulls...It didn't even feel like it was work half the time. I was in a weird numb place. So we drive home...I'm still emotional and a bit cry-y.

We get out of the car and OMG...my thighs/quads are screaming at me. Before the work out they were merely hollering from across the road...now they are in my ear like a drill sergeant. NOT cool. I try to rest for the evening...Mikey graciously took over some chores that needed doing. And I went to bed early. Hydrocodone and advil really aren't touching the pain...so why bother wasting them. I woke up this morning and could barely move. UGH! Rolling over in bed was pure torture. Walking is questionable. Sitting and standing...OMG the worst. So wrote in to work and took the half day we had off and then called to try to get a message to Wade that he killed me and we wouldn't be coming in today. He obviously didn't get that message so I'm gonna quit trying that route. Need to get the kid's cell phone digits. My mood has not picked up much and all I'm doing today is trying to sleep and eat a ton of protein to help things heal. Had some yummy Tuna fish salad with mustard instead of mayo for "brunch" and we just finished Spinach cooked with Turkey bacon, onion and egg...yummy! I think I'm gonna crash for a while again.

I really need to not have these horrible mood swings. It's not cool and totally unexplainable. :((

Day 17ish

OK...so this weekend totally rocked...except for all the cold rain and driving in Houston traffic in said rain. So Friday night was totally awesome...WWE Smack Down! I was so ticked that my camera wasn't fully charged and I missed out on some great shots cos of it. I know how to better prepare myself for next time they come to town. We had totally awesome seats in the second row and it was worth every freaking penny! So exciting and OMG Jeff was so much better in person...I was screaming my fool head off like the total fan girl that I am.

Saturday was waking up early and driving to Houston for family photos, which surprisingly was fun. My folks, even though they saw us last weekend...were pretty impressed in the changes they have seen in us. My dad said I was looking pretty spry...not sure what that means. But we took professional pictures for the first time since our wedding and I think they turned out pretty darn good. We then went and got lunch at Pei Wei and we were the only ones that took half our food to go. That felt good to do around them as well. So we got to totally surprise them on a few levels.

There were a lot of things I noticed on Saturday. My thighs are getting a lot firmer, I'm noticing my waist making changes and my endurance has increased a lot. I'm still not sure I'm even getting enough calories to properly lose the weight I wanna lose with the working out that I'm doing. I'm just not anymore hungry than what I'm eating...if that makes sense. It's like I've shrunk the stomach and I eat so regularly, these tiny little snacks here and there...that I never get ravishing hungry...except on a few few occasions.

We had our Cheat Day on Sunday to recover from our partying the night before. I don't even think the McDonald's around here have them but I was shocked to find that in Houston they have what I'm referring to as the low-carb Big Mac...they have Big Mac Snack Wraps....Holy Crapper-doodles! That was YUMMY. And I had a Big and Tasty Audrey-style and we split the fries like usual. Then when we got back into town, we had some Rosa's Tortilla Factory...I only had 2 chicken soft tacos and 2 tortillas with butter and a little honey. So for a Cheat Day...I could have been MUCH worse...I had other things in mind but seriously...I just can't do those things anymore.

So working out this week...we're doing Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday to allow our "friend" Wade a long weekend for Spring Break...aren't we nice? So I tried to be nicer yesterday...go along with everything Wade said without fighting him too much...Mike said I could still have room for improvement there...but I did do everything he said to do...and I didn't argue...much. When he made us go outside and do sideways horses in the parking lot...that's when I told him that I was going to gift him with me doing stairs...but now that we're doing horses...this was my stairs for him. They were easier. But Mike and I were doing them in unison and facing each other...I just feel like I'm trying to play basketball with Mikey and he's guarding me so mean like...it made me crack up. Then our last exercise for the night was graduated sprints...the first time I had 3 speeds like he wanted us to have...after that...I only had 2...it's not the running that gets to me...it's the stopping...on concrete...I have the fear of falling face forward into the pavement...not a cool feeling...so I do what I can, push myself as far as I feel comfy and then move on. I think Wade is cool with that. I'm actually convinced he can't stand me and that I annoy him too much...but I'm trying to get more chipper bout my teasing so he knows it's just teasing...lol

So tonight is another night and even though I'm sore from the deep clean jerks we were doing...basically 15 total "drop it like it's hot" moves...I'll try to be on good behavior. Let's see what he's got in store for us...lol

Day 12ish

OK...it's Friday. We survived our 3 nights in a row of working out. I think I broke Wade...I think he's lost his drive to push me sometimes. I'm gonna surprise him on Monday.

So last night...we did lower body work out with lots of arm stuff thrown in. I don't know why he bothers telling us we're doing arms or legs cos we always end up doing both with abs thrown in as well. But last night wasn't bad. Couldn't go out cos it was drizzly and cold. Dang! LOL

But things are going good...we're even talking bout using the gym at the hotel in Houston this weekend. That is definitely a first for me. :) The pool too if it's heated in the indoor pool there. We'll see.

So I'm stoked for tonight...2nd row floor seats...hoping to get some GREAT pics and some sweat and no blood on me from the ring...Jeff and HHH....yummy! Can't wait! I've been trying to win front row seats but alas it's not like I'm a winner in anything lately. lol...always runner up. But I'll survived....somehow...2nd row ain't shabby. This weekend will be busy and fun hopefully! Can't wait!

MUAH to all!

Day 11ish

OK...worked out the last two nights...Tuesday night Wade made us go outside...and play with balls and run horses in the parking lot. I was not amused. I played thru but grumbled of course the whole way thru. Wade truly isn't a bad guy...just has crazy ideas of what he thinks I think can be fun. lol I've really tried hard to explain to him that I'm not happy unless I'm complaining and I guess that's why he makes us do these things. Mike loved the work out outside. His positive attitude of reliving high school in an older and more out of shape body was amusing. He had fun and I have to say the change of venue was nice...just don't like running horses sideways...that's all.

So Tuesday went a lot faster than I thought, maybe it was cos we were outside. There was a nice breeze and it was actually pleasant.

Wednesday we got to the gym bout an hour early again and worked out on the machines upstairs. Tuesday I was only able to get up to 10 minutes on the elliptical. Wednesday evening I forced myself to do 15 and then did a bike for 30 minutes and then went back to the elliptical for another 10. I feel that's progress. It's dangerous to watch Comedy Central and be working out...I swear. Stephen Lynch and Reno 911 were killing me. Too funny.

So we finally go down and work with Wade. It's too cold to go outside so we're inside all day. Upper body work outs are getting better for me. But then he tried to make me do stairs. Homey don't play stairs. Mikey went and did the stairs. I argued him down to letting me do a fast 20 on one step. Hell, I'm probably doing more of a work out and less fear of tumbling down the stairs to a broken bone or death cos of leg exhaustion. Plus running the whole thing of stairs will kill my shin splints. I am totally convinced of that and NO ONE can change my mind. I've threatened Wade bodily harm if he makes me go thru shin splint pain. I told him to check with Mike if he didn't think I could punch. It got thru to his senses and he let me do 4 sets of fast 20's on the one step. :) Score for me!

We did the fly machine for the first time and Wade decided to be cute and crank it up to 50 pounds when I wasn't looking...punk. Guess that was pay back for me talking him out of the stairs. But I can do ti and that felt really good. Then...we went to another stationary contraption...I couldn't figure out what to do on it...oh...evidently upper body workouts include working out the lower abs...so you lay on this thing, brace your arms, ass hanging half off...you gotta bring your knees up in 4 sets of 10...grumble grumble...I seriously laughed at him but said...I'll try anything once, except stairs, twice if it doesn't suck too bad...I managed all 4 sets...and we all know I carry a LOT of my weight in that lower region. Grumble Grumble...not doing that one when I'm cramping...cos Wade will get punched...and the assault charges may, or may not, be worth it at that point. :)

Again...the work out went by faster than I thought it would. They are...somewhat...fun...at times. He makes it easy with chitchatting and making me lose count and such. But Mikey's been a great motivator as well for me so I'm glad he's there trudging along side of me!

On more exciting notes...I get to go see SmackDown tomorrow ngiht at Reed! I'm being such a freaking fan girl...gonna wear all my Jeff stuff and take my bear in case I get an autograph opportunity...Mikey said I can still get him to sign my boobs...but can't show that off as much...although his hands on me...hmmmmmm...ok...going to go back to work now before I get too distracted...lol

Day 9ish

OK...we start our 3 day trek of working out each night. Fun times. We walked to NorthGate for lunch cos Nikky needed to get out and walk out some stress...I think I did good. Had a slice of pizza from Antonio's...Spinach, Artichoke and cheese, thin thin crust. Ate it slowly and it totally stuffed me.

Then this afternoon I had to run a binder to a professor who's across campus...so that was another good walk for me. Felt great...just a bit warm out there today. But knew the next couple of days wouldn't be great for walking cross campus so figured today was better than later. Haven't been in that building since I worked there as an undergrad in Computer Science Dept. Ugh...not great memories. And I got to pass by my old job and the Chemistry building...felt good to stride by there and no even glance around for people I would know.

So tonight we're working on lower body. Here's to hoping I can stay in a positive mood during that and not fight Wade on everything. I hope he knows my fighting is half in jest...half real. so far he's not showing that his skin is too thin so think we are good. :)

Gotta stop by the eye doc to pic up an extra contact but then it's straight to the gym so we can get warmed up on some good cardio...I'm gonna go for a goal of 15 minutes on the elliptical...so far 7 has been the max at one time...gotta slowly build up on those before they totally kick my ass.

Guess that's it for the report for now. Should write again tomorrow! MUAH!

Day 8ish

OK...so we were out of town this weekend. Went to Austin for a geek out at a comic convention for me...and then visited with my family in Seguin and Kingsbury. Family always means food so it's no surprise that this morning I was up 0.7 pounds on wii fit. No biggie...there was Dragon Place involved and I thought we did really well, that involves rice and fried heavenly eggrolls. We were able to bring a lot of it home and then we shared it with Nikky today for lunch. So again, we didn't gorge ourselves on it. I'm proud of us.

Sunday morning we even went walking in the pasture behind my folks' house. It wasn't a big walk but a walk none-the-less. It was a incline at least in 1 direction. got us sweating and breathin hard...that's all that matters.

We were supposed to work out tonight but got a call from our "friend" Wade at lunch today and he wanted to reschedule for tomorrow night instead. So now...We get to work out Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday nights...back to back...JOY! I better not be too sore to enjoy my weekend. lol I'm sure it'll be fine. I'm gonna try to get some DDR done tonight. Might have to crank on the ac for that. Maybe we'll just go for a walk on our road...who knows. Just gotta be moving.

Eat less, move more...that's my new motto! Oh btw...really wasn't even sore at all this weekend. Either Wade didn't work us too hard on Friday or my body is getting accustomed...eh...just wait till we do legs again...I'll be whining again I'm sure.

MUAH!

Day 5

OK...so the pain has really set in today. Fun times. Luckily I had some hydrocodone on hand...it's taking some of the edge off. Just a little...but makes life bearable again. Got on my Wii Fit this morning. Wow...it had been 14 days since my last weigh in on there. Course it gave me a guilt trip and I talked back...love being able to do that. I had lost 4 pounds (2 weeks, 4 pounds...) since my last weigh in. It's a loss...but thought it'd be more. Not sure why I thought that. We haven't been doing the best on the diet...but we're getting there. Yesterday we had some Mexican food to help celebrate a friend's birthday and I really didn't eat that much there...just had some chips and cheesy beef, a nacho, a soft taco, and a tortilla w/ cheesy beef....sounds like a lot but really wasn't...I swear...but last night I really wasn't hungry so I only had a couple of pieces of sushi and some pot stickers...and some fruit.

We went shopping last night and I'm excited to try a few things we got. I already have tried my freeze-dried fruit...it's expensive but a pretty nummy snack...not filling at all...least not in my 1/8 oz servings of it but nummy none the less. I've got Blueberry and flax seed granola as a snack for later...at home which we didn't bring to work today as snacks but we got some new "chips." Let's see...Spinach and artichoke chips, Onion chips, olive chips, and multi grain. Some of those...we got for Mikey. I'll give em a shot but not too optimistic bout onion chips. We'll see. Couldn't find my very favorite Sweet Potato chips. That ticked me off. But I'm always looking for lower carb chip replacements. I just seem to love to munch.

I'm really happy that I'm trying new and healthier foods. Our diet has become sort of predictable in the last few years. It's been yummy obviously or I would have made a change, but just boring. I need to mix it up a bit.

OK...so tonight we go see our "friend" Wade and see what he has us do for our upper body. I'm hoping it means some more machines. I like working on machines for some reason. I was really disappointed that I didn't get to do leg presses on Wed night...and told him so. Hopefully we'll get there good and early so I can work some of the kinks out of my thighs...whatever the muscle is right above the knee to the hip...grrr...that one HURTS. When I sit down or stand up I feel like it's ripping. I'm sure that's only in my mind. lol...least I hope.

OK...that's it for now. I'm gonna try to get some walking done this weekend too. Going to Austin for a comic convention and then to my folks for the remainder of the weekend. We'll see what we get done.

Day 4 or so...

Well last night we had our second workout with our new friend Wade...I call him a friend cos he hasn't killed us yet. I'm doing my best to still have a very positive attitude...I found that slipping last night at the end of the work out. But we'll get to that.

OK...so last night was legs or lower body work out...we did some different squats and such...a little stair action...planks...and some other ab work...Planks and me...hmmm...not the easiest...but I stuck it out...and on the last one...yeah getting up was an issue...my right thigh gave out on me...recovered for a few seconds and with a lift from Mikey I was good. We had also gotten there 30 minutes early and after checking in and a trip out to the car to get things that I had forgotten such as towels...then we went and warmed up on the equipment upstairs...I tried a stairmaster...ok...I've done these before...but luck would have it that the one I got on was acting up...damn the luck, I wasn't meant to do StairMaster last night...so I got on a sitting bike and pedaled my heart out till Wade was ready for us...did over 3 and a half miles in 22 minutes...I didn't feel that was too shabby. Mike experimented with a bunch of different machines.

OK, so to the part where I crapped out. Floor work for abs...after a hard work out where I'm already winded and tired...have me lay on my back and do sets of ab crunches. Granted, I've never been able to ever do a crunch properly. Either I've never been shown or my belly gets in the way...I don't know. My face got so over heated from the blood rush and I guess lack of good breathing practices when I'm flat on my back struggling to keep my legs up while doing crunches. I wanna do ab work. Don't get me wrong. It's my hardest area that I know I need work on...but can we start on the machines doing stuff? Floor work never does me good. I had to sit up for a bit and take a breather. Wade offered alternatives to the crunches. Did I wanna do scissor kicks? use the big ball? What'd I wanna do? Um leave...lol...that's what I wanted to do. I took a moment and said to myself no...I have to do something. So after my face cooled off...I did scissor kicks. Then Wade was nice and had us stretch to end out the session.

He said we'd hurt today. And I trusted him on that. I thought it'd be bad...we did a few different types of squats and I was feeling the burn last night. Either it hasn't set in yet, or I do more working out when I go nuts dancing at the club and drop it like it's hot like a fool who does NOT know when to quit. I've been in much more pain following those weekends...LMAO...I'm wondering if I should tell him that or not. Don't want him to take it as a challenge. But yes I hurt...no I'm, not dying. I was even brave enough to wear my heels again today. I felt for sure it would be a mistake but I's cool.

So after the work out last night, we went and hung with Nikky Celebrating her last night of her 30s in style. She even fed us...even though it was Pizza...lol. I did good. Should have stopped at one piece...but only had 2 and a couple little pieces of cheese bread. One piece really filled me up...but I was compelled to eat the second piece by outside forces. lol And today for lunch we had Mexican food. But I only had a few chips, with cheesy beef, a soft taco, and a nacho really. that's it, and I had a tortilla. For me, that's amazing. I'm just NOT hungry. Rock on! And I was starving before we left...So it's all good. I'll knock out a snack from my daily routine today to make up for the extra carbs and calories. May even do some Dance Dance tonight if we get home at a decent time. We have to get groceries and run a couple of other errands tonight.

OK...I'll have more later! thanks for reading and I always appreciate support. MUAH!

Audrey

Day 2...

Well, I call this Day 2...we've been trying to lose weight for a while now...2 years ago, I lost 60 pounds in 6 months...then plateaued...and gained some of it back. Now, we started again at the first of the year and have tried to work on it seriously. We're 30, we're not getting any younger, and every extra pound is a mark against my fertility and it's killin me. So...I say this is Day 2 cos we started with a Personal Trainer, Wade, last night at a local gym.

We started with Wade even though I'm deathly afraid of gyms because of a fitness challenge they were advertising on the radio back in January. I entered to win a chance for free 3 months of training. Well I was not selected for that, but since I was a finalist I was given a great chance to get some training, along with my hubby Mikey for a reduced rate. And we are going for it. We have to do something drastic cos diet alone does not seem to be working.

So here I am...we started last night and in a mindset for needing more accountability, I'm blogging my progress. No one may read it...but hey...accountability to myself hasn't been enough. I'll put it on the blogosphere to hold me accountable.

OK...where was I...ok...we worked on upper body last night...and it wasn't all that tough...my arms were kind of noodley last night but today the arms are pretty OK...chest muscles got a work out that's for sure. They are feeling the pain. I don't even know the names of everything we were doing...I just know we were focused on arms and chest...and I didn't die.

Tomorrow night we start on the lower body...that's where I may die afterwards...I've heard of these things they do called lunges and squats...and stairs...I can feel the shin splints startin...lol

We walked today for lunch, least to go get lunch and back. It was Subway and it was on the healthy menu...hey it worked for Jared! Bout a mile round trip, not too bad. Usually for lunch we do about 2 miles around campus. We'll see what we do tomorrow.

I really hope this helps! So far this year alone I've lost like 10 pounds...keeping small goals. Wanna lose 10-20 a month. According to one doc I need to look at losing like 150 total...I'm settling on 100 as my main big goal. I'll keep ya posted!