OK...so I've been bored and been too busy watching Hulu to update my blog...how sad am I? lol But here I am...ran out of things to watch for today at least. So it's Wednesday...we work out tonight. We had a pretty good work out on Monday. We got there early enough again for a good hour of cardio warm up...did 30 minutes on the elliptical...took a potty break and was gonna do treadmill...but you know what...elliptical was really flowing for me Monday so I did another 30 minutes on it. It felt really good. :) So I burned what the machine tells me as 775 calories there...just in my warm up. ROCK ON!
Then we had a pretty decent workout with Wade. I think he finally figured out how to instruct me to do squats without the back of my left knee feeling like it's going to pop...some tendon back there is annoying and does NOT like squats. I'd take my Right knee to be the one that would give me grief...but alas...it's the Left. But now I will pay more attention to toes straight and ass out first then knees. We'll see. He keeps telling me to do it like I'm dropping it on the dance floor...he does NOT understand what that means. Maybe we should got dancing with him sometime so he can see what the hell I mean when I drop it like it's hot. lol
We did a good mixture and I bitched less than normal but was still full of fun loving banter. And...get this...Mike is staying home Thursday and Friday to take care of some house stuff before the party this Saturday...so Thursday is a work out day...we got to break it to Wade that he may just be getting me on Thursday. The look of concern on his face was priceless. :) He's been really getting into the whole getting Mikey built up and he's been able to use that as a way to avoid me more I think. He's still scared of me and my moods. I promised him if I was in a mood on Thursday I would call ahead and cancel. That seemed to ease his fears but I still think he's thinking Mikey will come with anyway. I know I can do it without Mikey there and I know Mikey will be getting enough of a work out mowing and organizing the carport and such to make up for missing the work out.
So I'm really looking forward to this weekend. It feels like forever since we've hosted a good party at our place. This one is shaping up to look really great. We'll have a great group...some newbies and some oldies and some oldies from two different groups may get to meet and I'm stoked bout my friends meeting each other. :) I know I'm odd...but it's gonna be fun...I swear damnit. If you're not having fun at my party...you're just not doing it right. :) hehehehe
OK...guess that's it...here's to working out tonight...getting all hot and sweaty and then going to HEB for groceries in work out clothes again...hell if people wanna look at me funny for wearing my work out gear to HEB...let em...least it proves I'm trying to do something bout my condition. LOL...F*ck em and feed em cheese!
Oh...almost forgot the funniest part of Monday night's workout...we went outside for the last 10-15 minutes...and there was this adorable cotton tail that was handing out by the fence. Wade decided he could catch it...so he went running after it...Mike said he got close...I have to give it to Wade...he's fast! Then the rabbit appeared again...and I talked Wade into trying again...LMAO...was soooo worth his attempt...I needed the laugh...He did this slow creeping crawl on his finger tips and tiptoes...OMG...so incredibly worth it. Alas, he wasn't able to catch it again. I just don't think he was putting in 100% effort there. We'll see if the bunny comes back again tonight!
OK...that's it now...I swear!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
It was a good week...have to say
So sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I'd like to say I was busy with work or something but I was busy watching TV at work when I didn't have cases. But the cases were few and far between. Then on Thursday I woke up with a migraine and ended up staying home until work out time. It went away around 3 or 4 in the afternoon so it was safe. And then Friday was a half day. Gotta love religious holidays for at least getting me out of work somewhat. So Happy Zombie Jesus Weekend to all those that care. lol Got tired quickly of all the Easter stuff this year. Guess it's just me.
OK...so working out this weekend. I think it went rather well. I didn't fight Wade very much...least not like I have been. I just gave him some very weird looks at times. We did legs on Wednesday and he tried to make it where I couldn't walk on Thursday...maybe he was half to blame for the migraine. But I'll let him slide and blame the wonders of hormones instead...otherwise the coincidence of it all would be just weird. But yeah, we did a lot of new leg workouts...then he made me do some Ab stuff...least I think it was Wednesday...I know it wasn't Thursday...He worked the side Abs. Standing up, holding a weight in one hand...and dropping that hand for 20 and then switch to do the other side. That hurt is just now going away. lol But it felt good.
On Thursday, my legs didn't even want to make it up the stairs to go do cardio. So I thought I would take it easy and do a bike instead of elliptical and treadmill...but the calories per minute was so sad that I gave up after 10 minutes and only 60 calories burned. Screw that. I need to burn more. So I went and did 45 minutes on the treadmill instead. Think I ended up with 450 on the treadmill. Not as much as usual but the legs just were not up for the elliptical. I didn't eat my usual calorie intake on Thursday since we were home...and for some reason, I just can't eat as often as I do at work. So we went to Subway afterwards to try to make up some calories. But we did arms on Thursday and Wade had a few new things to try. He's really starting to bulk up on the weights for Mikey. Our goal is to have him looking like he belongs on the Wrestling circuit in a few months. Guess we're gonna have to look into shaving him too...lol...that should be fun. He assures me it won't be a big deal. I know it'll look great and I've been harping on him to do it for years...but now that it's a reality...should be interesting.
So that was my week of working out. It was good. I think I did very well. I barely fought...I'm sure Wade would say otherwise but my fights weren't serious. This weekend I'm focusing on sewing and cleaning for the party next weekend. I was going to mow...but I think I'll wait till later in the week. I don't have much I want to mow. The weight is coming off slowly. I like to think I'm burning fat but replacing it with muscle which is why the weight digits aren't going down. Don't ruin my illusion. lol Had lunch with a friend on Friday who I haven't seen in quite a few months. He told me it over obvious that I was slimming down. I'll take his word for it. It's hard to notice on a day to day basis. And I didn't let Wade do measurements cos all I cared about was the weight to come down...but now I'm curious...damnit. Oh well. Guess pictures will tell the tale. I want to do a photo shoot soon so hopefully we'll see some changes in those.
OK...till next time...MUAH!
OK...so working out this weekend. I think it went rather well. I didn't fight Wade very much...least not like I have been. I just gave him some very weird looks at times. We did legs on Wednesday and he tried to make it where I couldn't walk on Thursday...maybe he was half to blame for the migraine. But I'll let him slide and blame the wonders of hormones instead...otherwise the coincidence of it all would be just weird. But yeah, we did a lot of new leg workouts...then he made me do some Ab stuff...least I think it was Wednesday...I know it wasn't Thursday...He worked the side Abs. Standing up, holding a weight in one hand...and dropping that hand for 20 and then switch to do the other side. That hurt is just now going away. lol But it felt good.
On Thursday, my legs didn't even want to make it up the stairs to go do cardio. So I thought I would take it easy and do a bike instead of elliptical and treadmill...but the calories per minute was so sad that I gave up after 10 minutes and only 60 calories burned. Screw that. I need to burn more. So I went and did 45 minutes on the treadmill instead. Think I ended up with 450 on the treadmill. Not as much as usual but the legs just were not up for the elliptical. I didn't eat my usual calorie intake on Thursday since we were home...and for some reason, I just can't eat as often as I do at work. So we went to Subway afterwards to try to make up some calories. But we did arms on Thursday and Wade had a few new things to try. He's really starting to bulk up on the weights for Mikey. Our goal is to have him looking like he belongs on the Wrestling circuit in a few months. Guess we're gonna have to look into shaving him too...lol...that should be fun. He assures me it won't be a big deal. I know it'll look great and I've been harping on him to do it for years...but now that it's a reality...should be interesting.
So that was my week of working out. It was good. I think I did very well. I barely fought...I'm sure Wade would say otherwise but my fights weren't serious. This weekend I'm focusing on sewing and cleaning for the party next weekend. I was going to mow...but I think I'll wait till later in the week. I don't have much I want to mow. The weight is coming off slowly. I like to think I'm burning fat but replacing it with muscle which is why the weight digits aren't going down. Don't ruin my illusion. lol Had lunch with a friend on Friday who I haven't seen in quite a few months. He told me it over obvious that I was slimming down. I'll take his word for it. It's hard to notice on a day to day basis. And I didn't let Wade do measurements cos all I cared about was the weight to come down...but now I'm curious...damnit. Oh well. Guess pictures will tell the tale. I want to do a photo shoot soon so hopefully we'll see some changes in those.
OK...till next time...MUAH!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Riding a high right now
We had a great work out last night. OK...I did...Mike was still rather exhausted but I think he had a good work out too. He's really sleepy today...he should have stayed home. I'm having some coffee cos I'm getting addicted again but I'm not using it to wake up. I swear...lol
So, of course last ngiht we got to the gym good and early, straight from work cos what else can we do since we live so far out of the way...And I did 35 on the elliptical and that accounts to bout 400 calories burned! Woohoo! Then I got on the treadmill and did another 300 calories in the next 35 or so minutes. I was feeling the burn and having fun with it. On the elliptical, I even did speed intervals again...but this time I did 2 minutes at a time instead of 1. Then one time I just went to see how fast I could get it going...and wow...that was a shocker...and hard to stop.
Then we went and met with Wade. Evidently yesterday was Arms Day. That's all we really did. I was in a very cheerful/Evil mood so I was having fun. My arms are a bit rubbery today but no major pain yet. They are resting. He really pushed me on doing some push-ups...and I had to adjust his bar placement on my last set...cos I was going to fail basically and I only had to do 15...and that was working the arms to their fail point, not sure if he realized that...he's sneaky so who knows. For our final bit, we went to go do a little Ab workout. He has high hopes of what he thinks I can do. So yeah, I tried and that was a no go. So instead he had me do some slow scissor kicks until fail. Yeah he wanted 4 sets...he got 3 and I said new exercise please...lol...and I got to do an Ab machine so that was least good.
I was impressed with my attitude and my stamina...even if they didn't show how impressed they were...I was happy with myself so it's all good. On the Scissor kicks, when doing them, I didn't feel it in the Abs at all. And I'm like...something ain't working here...but man...afterwards when we went shopping at HEB...OK...I could so feel it then. But today...I'm golden. So it's all good.
This weekend was fun. Saturday I shocked myself and was able to mow the ENTIRE back 1/2 acre in 3 hours. Usually this feat takes me all day or at least 6 hours or so cos of all the breaks I have to take. But not this time. Wooohooo! Things are looking up for me in the stamina department so it's all good. Then we went to town, had some Freebirds (who has Carnita's now and they are SOOOOOOOOOO Yummy!), went to the movies, drooled over Vin in Fast & Furious with the Nikky and Roger, then had Pei Wei, then went home and vegged and then had my leftovers from Pei Wei. :) Leftovers rock. Really expands the dining out experience.
Sunday was Wrestle Mania...and YAY! We had it in HD at the house on our beautimus TV. We had some friends over and had a grand ole time! It was a late night but it was a fun one. We had this huge awesome pork loin that we put on the pit and it was super yummy! We had some slightly overcooked Chicken wings and of course my Cheese Dip with sausage in it. I may or may not have had a moment with some chips and spinach dip as well as a bit of yogurt and granola...but nothing too dangerous is in my house anymore...worst stuff was the Cheesy Pork.
We did eat Cazadore's yesterday for lunch and I did have some chips and Cheesy beef but that wasn't my fault. I wanted Jason's Deli. I got out-voted by the line at Jason's. But I did good and had spinach enchiladas. Then after work out last night I was bad and we had some quick food from Wendy's. But seeing as I burned at least 1000 calories last night and lost .6 pounds from yesterday morning, I'm not too guilty feeling at this time. I was last night though. But I'm over it this morning after the scale was nice to me.
Guess that's it. I hope Wade finally reads my comments on him from last Friday. I was hurt he didn't read them before our work out last night. But I won't let it bother me. :) Hopefully this good positive attitude can last thru-out the week of working out. That would be a first. LOL. But hey, I got started on an excellent note. :) OK...done tooting my own horn...hehehehe
So, of course last ngiht we got to the gym good and early, straight from work cos what else can we do since we live so far out of the way...And I did 35 on the elliptical and that accounts to bout 400 calories burned! Woohoo! Then I got on the treadmill and did another 300 calories in the next 35 or so minutes. I was feeling the burn and having fun with it. On the elliptical, I even did speed intervals again...but this time I did 2 minutes at a time instead of 1. Then one time I just went to see how fast I could get it going...and wow...that was a shocker...and hard to stop.
Then we went and met with Wade. Evidently yesterday was Arms Day. That's all we really did. I was in a very cheerful/Evil mood so I was having fun. My arms are a bit rubbery today but no major pain yet. They are resting. He really pushed me on doing some push-ups...and I had to adjust his bar placement on my last set...cos I was going to fail basically and I only had to do 15...and that was working the arms to their fail point, not sure if he realized that...he's sneaky so who knows. For our final bit, we went to go do a little Ab workout. He has high hopes of what he thinks I can do. So yeah, I tried and that was a no go. So instead he had me do some slow scissor kicks until fail. Yeah he wanted 4 sets...he got 3 and I said new exercise please...lol...and I got to do an Ab machine so that was least good.
I was impressed with my attitude and my stamina...even if they didn't show how impressed they were...I was happy with myself so it's all good. On the Scissor kicks, when doing them, I didn't feel it in the Abs at all. And I'm like...something ain't working here...but man...afterwards when we went shopping at HEB...OK...I could so feel it then. But today...I'm golden. So it's all good.
This weekend was fun. Saturday I shocked myself and was able to mow the ENTIRE back 1/2 acre in 3 hours. Usually this feat takes me all day or at least 6 hours or so cos of all the breaks I have to take. But not this time. Wooohooo! Things are looking up for me in the stamina department so it's all good. Then we went to town, had some Freebirds (who has Carnita's now and they are SOOOOOOOOOO Yummy!), went to the movies, drooled over Vin in Fast & Furious with the Nikky and Roger, then had Pei Wei, then went home and vegged and then had my leftovers from Pei Wei. :) Leftovers rock. Really expands the dining out experience.
Sunday was Wrestle Mania...and YAY! We had it in HD at the house on our beautimus TV. We had some friends over and had a grand ole time! It was a late night but it was a fun one. We had this huge awesome pork loin that we put on the pit and it was super yummy! We had some slightly overcooked Chicken wings and of course my Cheese Dip with sausage in it. I may or may not have had a moment with some chips and spinach dip as well as a bit of yogurt and granola...but nothing too dangerous is in my house anymore...worst stuff was the Cheesy Pork.
We did eat Cazadore's yesterday for lunch and I did have some chips and Cheesy beef but that wasn't my fault. I wanted Jason's Deli. I got out-voted by the line at Jason's. But I did good and had spinach enchiladas. Then after work out last night I was bad and we had some quick food from Wendy's. But seeing as I burned at least 1000 calories last night and lost .6 pounds from yesterday morning, I'm not too guilty feeling at this time. I was last night though. But I'm over it this morning after the scale was nice to me.
Guess that's it. I hope Wade finally reads my comments on him from last Friday. I was hurt he didn't read them before our work out last night. But I won't let it bother me. :) Hopefully this good positive attitude can last thru-out the week of working out. That would be a first. LOL. But hey, I got started on an excellent note. :) OK...done tooting my own horn...hehehehe
Friday, April 3, 2009
A few revalations...
OK...so Wednesday and Thursday working out was fine. Thursday was a bit worse than Wednesday, but overall it was OK. It's brought to mind a lot of control issues that I have. But I'll get to that in a bit.
I don't even really remember all we did Wednesday night. I know I only quit on one thing merely because it made me feel stupid as hell for doing it. I opted to do lunges instead of repeating that annoying ass slow side crouch walk thingy. On Thursday we started off just fine...we had over an hour of cardio prior to actually starting the work out...maybe that's what drained my mood...I don't know. But we were going along really well and I promised Mike we would go outside if Wade wanted to...and we did...however Wade had crazy plans and I had nothing to do with it. He wanted these frog jumps, Audrey no frog jump...least not till she loses 50 more pounds...sorry. He then wanted side walking squats while tossing a ball back and forth between me and Mike...yeah...hip screamed at me and Audrey no do hip screaming. Then...he wanted increment running...I barely got out of second gear before my shins said...I don't think so...Audrey not doing this either. So well Mike had fun doing a few exercises but we quickly went back inside where Wade couldn't seem to suggest any workouts that I could complete...so I just started doing some of my own. Evidently I was in a mood.
I have to say now that Wade has informed me that he's finally reading this thing. I am glad and I really hope it helps him understand me better. I *know* I am a horrendous client to have to deal with. I fight him on almost everything he suggests. I would not blame him if he went and complained that he has the hardest client to work with. I'll back him up on it. I simply know what I can and can't do some days. He has to admit that most days I banter with him on things but I do everything he asks...except the stairs...my poor shins and all. I at least try it. Give it a good shot. But this brings me to my control issues...
I like to be in control 95% of the time. This is probably partly cos of my personality and probably partly from crappy past relationships where I lost my self identity and my self worth to at least one asshole who mentally and verbally abused me. I was virtually beaten down and was a shell of who I am now. And I won't give that up again. I can be a bit much some days but I do like who I am. I have friends that will vouch for the fact that I'm vibrant and full of life and can be a rather confident person. And I like that. I won't change it.
I made a mistake on Wednesday by telling Wade that I could walk all over him and that that was great...after a short bit of thinking...I realized my error and took the foot out of my mouth and reworded things to state that he, as my trainer, is an excellent fit for me. I need a bit of structure, but too much structure and I rebel. If he had been strict like a drill sergeant and not given me options...I wouldn't be there right now. I would have walked the Hell out and either went and sat on my ass or I would have found another trainer elsewhere. Most likely I would have sat on my ass and evidently really would have disappointed Mikey. I'm glad I stayed, not just for Mikey's sake...but for mine too. I am actually really looking forward to working out now. I know when I can push my body and I know the days when I just can't. I enjoy being self-aware like that. Wade is an excellent fit for us cos he knows how to push us, how to challenge us, but he won't force me to do anything. I don't know if it's his tone or just the way he's figured out how to work with me. I'm sure it makes his job harder cos he's having to think more about options that I won't fight him so much on. But I know he misses it when I'm not so argumentative...he doesn't like scary silent Audrey. I don't either. Trust me Wade, I'm not just saying this cos I know you are reading now. It's the honest truth. Thank you for putting up with me. I know it's not easy.
I guess that's all the revelations I have for today...I look forward to mowing the back 40 tomorrow at least and cleaning the house so we can have a kick-ass Wrestle Mania party on Sunday! Hope everyone has a good weekend.
I don't even really remember all we did Wednesday night. I know I only quit on one thing merely because it made me feel stupid as hell for doing it. I opted to do lunges instead of repeating that annoying ass slow side crouch walk thingy. On Thursday we started off just fine...we had over an hour of cardio prior to actually starting the work out...maybe that's what drained my mood...I don't know. But we were going along really well and I promised Mike we would go outside if Wade wanted to...and we did...however Wade had crazy plans and I had nothing to do with it. He wanted these frog jumps, Audrey no frog jump...least not till she loses 50 more pounds...sorry. He then wanted side walking squats while tossing a ball back and forth between me and Mike...yeah...hip screamed at me and Audrey no do hip screaming. Then...he wanted increment running...I barely got out of second gear before my shins said...I don't think so...Audrey not doing this either. So well Mike had fun doing a few exercises but we quickly went back inside where Wade couldn't seem to suggest any workouts that I could complete...so I just started doing some of my own. Evidently I was in a mood.
I have to say now that Wade has informed me that he's finally reading this thing. I am glad and I really hope it helps him understand me better. I *know* I am a horrendous client to have to deal with. I fight him on almost everything he suggests. I would not blame him if he went and complained that he has the hardest client to work with. I'll back him up on it. I simply know what I can and can't do some days. He has to admit that most days I banter with him on things but I do everything he asks...except the stairs...my poor shins and all. I at least try it. Give it a good shot. But this brings me to my control issues...
I like to be in control 95% of the time. This is probably partly cos of my personality and probably partly from crappy past relationships where I lost my self identity and my self worth to at least one asshole who mentally and verbally abused me. I was virtually beaten down and was a shell of who I am now. And I won't give that up again. I can be a bit much some days but I do like who I am. I have friends that will vouch for the fact that I'm vibrant and full of life and can be a rather confident person. And I like that. I won't change it.
I made a mistake on Wednesday by telling Wade that I could walk all over him and that that was great...after a short bit of thinking...I realized my error and took the foot out of my mouth and reworded things to state that he, as my trainer, is an excellent fit for me. I need a bit of structure, but too much structure and I rebel. If he had been strict like a drill sergeant and not given me options...I wouldn't be there right now. I would have walked the Hell out and either went and sat on my ass or I would have found another trainer elsewhere. Most likely I would have sat on my ass and evidently really would have disappointed Mikey. I'm glad I stayed, not just for Mikey's sake...but for mine too. I am actually really looking forward to working out now. I know when I can push my body and I know the days when I just can't. I enjoy being self-aware like that. Wade is an excellent fit for us cos he knows how to push us, how to challenge us, but he won't force me to do anything. I don't know if it's his tone or just the way he's figured out how to work with me. I'm sure it makes his job harder cos he's having to think more about options that I won't fight him so much on. But I know he misses it when I'm not so argumentative...he doesn't like scary silent Audrey. I don't either. Trust me Wade, I'm not just saying this cos I know you are reading now. It's the honest truth. Thank you for putting up with me. I know it's not easy.
I guess that's all the revelations I have for today...I look forward to mowing the back 40 tomorrow at least and cleaning the house so we can have a kick-ass Wrestle Mania party on Sunday! Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
April Foll's day but not foolin
So here it is a new month...Didn't play any April Fool's jokes...not really in the mood for em. Glad no one really had any for me. So it's Wednesday, Humpday...workout day! Work has actually been a little busy...stupid bad Aggie's getting in the way of my bill paying, TV watching and blog writing. Can't understand why they rather me do actual work instead of my work. I don't get it. LOL
OK...So I just actually scanned back thru and saw people have actually left me some comments! I'm touched. Thanks! I'll try to be more observant of comments coming thru. I really thought this blogger would send me notices of comments. Oh well, maybe I have to tweak something in the settings for that. But seeing comments and knowing people are reading and maybe I'm helping to inspire someone...that rocks! That's why I'm doing this. Cos we all know...I'm a giver. LMAO...OK...that was funny. But no, I feel good to be contributing some way out there to the greater good.
So Monday we worked out with our "friend" Wade. He decided we weren't going to be counting reps...we were gonna be working at a faster pace...get more cardio into the workout. Forget the fact that I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 30 on the treadmill and burned 620 calories prior to starting...but hey...I'm game to try something new. I did crap out at the end. It was an exercise I can't do very well so I just gave up on my last 2 sets of 4...I didn't think that was so bad. Wade tried to guilt me with a pouty face...that won't work when I have my mind made up. He'll learn. LOL...I think he seriously thinks I hate him. I love striking fear in those around me. :) The fact I keep coming back and am signing up for another month of his kind of fun...that should say something. I haven't asked for a replacement trainer, which is simply cos I'd hate to train a whole new one. Wade was so easy to break in. hehehehe
But Monday night was actually somewhat fun. I just hope this allergy/sinus crap I'm dealing with is just that and not strep like my poor friend Nikky. She can't seem to stay well these days. It's driving the both of us bonkers. And...I can't afford to get sick. We have Wrestle Mania at our place on Sunday. I got company coming over and cleaning and mowing and such to do. Plus I don't have much saved time at work here lately from dealing with my sickness after we got back from Vegas.
So I'm gonna push thru tonight...see what happens...keep pushing the water and maybe I can flush this crap out if it is some bug. Not give it a chance to settle in. Plus I have more sewing to do on this quilt I'm working on. Will need to deliver it in the next couple of weeks. It's not 5 yet and I want it to be so I can get out of this boring place. No Nikky means it's extra boring. LOL...OK...I'm out for now...will try to write again tomorrow.
MUAH!
OK...So I just actually scanned back thru and saw people have actually left me some comments! I'm touched. Thanks! I'll try to be more observant of comments coming thru. I really thought this blogger would send me notices of comments. Oh well, maybe I have to tweak something in the settings for that. But seeing comments and knowing people are reading and maybe I'm helping to inspire someone...that rocks! That's why I'm doing this. Cos we all know...I'm a giver. LMAO...OK...that was funny. But no, I feel good to be contributing some way out there to the greater good.
So Monday we worked out with our "friend" Wade. He decided we weren't going to be counting reps...we were gonna be working at a faster pace...get more cardio into the workout. Forget the fact that I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and 30 on the treadmill and burned 620 calories prior to starting...but hey...I'm game to try something new. I did crap out at the end. It was an exercise I can't do very well so I just gave up on my last 2 sets of 4...I didn't think that was so bad. Wade tried to guilt me with a pouty face...that won't work when I have my mind made up. He'll learn. LOL...I think he seriously thinks I hate him. I love striking fear in those around me. :) The fact I keep coming back and am signing up for another month of his kind of fun...that should say something. I haven't asked for a replacement trainer, which is simply cos I'd hate to train a whole new one. Wade was so easy to break in. hehehehe
But Monday night was actually somewhat fun. I just hope this allergy/sinus crap I'm dealing with is just that and not strep like my poor friend Nikky. She can't seem to stay well these days. It's driving the both of us bonkers. And...I can't afford to get sick. We have Wrestle Mania at our place on Sunday. I got company coming over and cleaning and mowing and such to do. Plus I don't have much saved time at work here lately from dealing with my sickness after we got back from Vegas.
So I'm gonna push thru tonight...see what happens...keep pushing the water and maybe I can flush this crap out if it is some bug. Not give it a chance to settle in. Plus I have more sewing to do on this quilt I'm working on. Will need to deliver it in the next couple of weeks.
MUAH!
Friday, March 27, 2009
feeling MUCH Better
I really didn't believe I could basically force myself into a good mood...but I did. Rock on! Kicked the hormones for now. Went and had a really good work out last night and no one really made me feel like a moron for the day before of quitting and the whole crying and hiding fiasco. Did 30 minutes on the elliptical and another 20 or 30 on the treadmill...I forget...another 500 calories or so burned, so rock on...
I can NOT wait till it warms up and I can #1 get back to working out in my pool too...I'm such a water baby and #2 get to mow my damn yard...ok...my acre of weeds but still they need it...specially after all this rain this week and maybe #3 we can get into a routine of maybe working our or playing sports with friends...been forever since we played tennis or hoops or anything...volleyball net on the pool too so that's fun!
Still in limbo land on life right now but trying my best not to focus on that. My weekend either be great or it can be hellish...we'll see which way it turns out. Wish I could will myself to be fine if things go south in Limbo-land but we'll just have to see and play it by ear. If things stay positive we may get out of town Sat night and meet some people...who knows...maybe they'll come to us...We do Big Event in the morning with the Nikky and we have a strategy meeting tonight at 5 to make sure we're all on the same page for that cos it may prove to be hectic. Who knows...first time doing this thing...trying to give of myself more...working on that side of Karma for a change.
OK...think that's it for now...I'll probably be quiet till Monday or Tuesday on here...who knows how this weekend will go...I may need to vent. We'll see. Thanks for reading if you're reading. It does mean a lot to me that someone out there other than just my wonderful Hubby Mikey is reading this so just let me know if you're reading and supporting me or if you are a horrible person that just doesn't care...ok...don't let me know that. I may already think it already and I don't want those thoughts confirmed. LMAO :) See...much better mood today. :) MUAH!
I can NOT wait till it warms up and I can #1 get back to working out in my pool too...I'm such a water baby and #2 get to mow my damn yard...ok...my acre of weeds but still they need it...specially after all this rain this week and maybe #3 we can get into a routine of maybe working our or playing sports with friends...been forever since we played tennis or hoops or anything...volleyball net on the pool too so that's fun!
Still in limbo land on life right now but trying my best not to focus on that. My weekend either be great or it can be hellish...we'll see which way it turns out. Wish I could will myself to be fine if things go south in Limbo-land but we'll just have to see and play it by ear. If things stay positive we may get out of town Sat night and meet some people...who knows...maybe they'll come to us...We do Big Event in the morning with the Nikky and we have a strategy meeting tonight at 5 to make sure we're all on the same page for that cos it may prove to be hectic. Who knows...first time doing this thing...trying to give of myself more...working on that side of Karma for a change.
OK...think that's it for now...I'll probably be quiet till Monday or Tuesday on here...who knows how this weekend will go...I may need to vent. We'll see. Thanks for reading if you're reading. It does mean a lot to me that someone out there other than just my wonderful Hubby Mikey is reading this so just let me know if you're reading and supporting me or if you are a horrible person that just doesn't care...ok...don't let me know that. I may already think it already and I don't want those thoughts confirmed. LMAO :) See...much better mood today. :) MUAH!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Rough Patch
OK...so I think I've emerged from a rough patch I've had the last couple of days. Hormones are on some kind of overload and I feel like I'm in limbo...but least I quit crying. :) Turned my frown upside down and stickin to it...we hope. lol
OK...so last night was bad...bad bad bad...hormones overtook me and I could not right myself...the ship sank bad. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and 15 on the treadmill and I was wiped. We took a break before the real work out and I did the first two exercises...and quit...just up and quit. I let Mike finish his but I couldn't. I sat there like a lump for a bit then I thought the sauna would help. Sweated my ass off for 5 minutes and didn't make any progress. Went and stood outside the front door just as the storm really blew in. I couldn't run from my internal storm however much I tried. I cried and watched the rain. I couldn't seem to hide from people. They kept trying to make sure I was OK. I know they are sweet but I needed to be left alone. So then I hid out in the locker room bathroom till Mike texted me that he was done. It was a BAD night hormonally for me. No real reason at all to cry...nothing...but I couldn't stop which pissed me off and made me cry more. Got home and finally was able to calm myself down...but woke up this morning mad at myself and mad at the world. Finally round lunch I snapped and decided that I was going to get back in control. And I think I am. Who knows.
But for this moment...I'm good. Not ecstatic or happy but I'm good. I'm going to try and push myself to get through our work out tonight...no matter what. Don't even think I'm getting on the scale tonight...don't need that added stress.
Here's to hoping Wade doesn't ask too many questions bout yesterday and takes at face value that I'm fine. Not 100%...can't talk bout it out loud...or tears may come back. Not 100%...but I'm good...and for now I'm fine with that. :)
OK...so last night was bad...bad bad bad...hormones overtook me and I could not right myself...the ship sank bad. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and 15 on the treadmill and I was wiped. We took a break before the real work out and I did the first two exercises...and quit...just up and quit. I let Mike finish his but I couldn't. I sat there like a lump for a bit then I thought the sauna would help. Sweated my ass off for 5 minutes and didn't make any progress. Went and stood outside the front door just as the storm really blew in. I couldn't run from my internal storm however much I tried. I cried and watched the rain. I couldn't seem to hide from people. They kept trying to make sure I was OK. I know they are sweet but I needed to be left alone. So then I hid out in the locker room bathroom till Mike texted me that he was done. It was a BAD night hormonally for me. No real reason at all to cry...nothing...but I couldn't stop which pissed me off and made me cry more. Got home and finally was able to calm myself down...but woke up this morning mad at myself and mad at the world. Finally round lunch I snapped and decided that I was going to get back in control. And I think I am. Who knows.
But for this moment...I'm good. Not ecstatic or happy but I'm good. I'm going to try and push myself to get through our work out tonight...no matter what. Don't even think I'm getting on the scale tonight...don't need that added stress.
Here's to hoping Wade doesn't ask too many questions bout yesterday and takes at face value that I'm fine. Not 100%...can't talk bout it out loud...or tears may come back. Not 100%...but I'm good...and for now I'm fine with that. :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Lost count of days...it's a longer Journey than days anyway!
OK...so it's been close to a week since I wrote on here. Last week was a tough one for me workout wise. Tuesday was emotional to no end...thanks to wonderful hormones and Wednesday was just plain painful! But yay! I am healed, I say! By Thursday afternoon I was in the pool helping Mikey scrub it down so I can get some use out of it some day soon. So all better now! And I even used my mother-in-law's treadmill over the weekend even though it was loud and annoying and the treadmill was loud too. hehehehehe Always the comedian, that's me.
So we have been weighing ourselves every morning at the house all natural with no added weight. I think first thing in the morning is the best...no extra food weight and such. So I had been watching my weight come down. It was exciting. But Monday when I got to the gym and weighed myself before shoes...I was so happy...down 5 pounds since last Monday! Even if that scale weighs me a few pounds heavier than at home...it is later in the day and I do have clothes on...so that could account for the 2-3 pound difference. Then I went to the doc office this morning...and they only show 6 pounds for the month...hmmm...but hey...I'm down 15 pounds in the past two months. Wooohooo! Time for new clothes shopping! My pants are starting to become a bit loose!
Last night we did our normal 45 minutes or so of good cardio. I was proud of Mikey...he's been miserable with allergies and I didn't think he'd be able to play through given the mood and state of mind he's been in all day yesterday. But it seems like as long as he's exercising, eating or sleeping...he's fine. Soon as we quit any of those 3 things...he's miserable again. He's trying a new drug today and so far it seems better. But I burned bout 500 calories on cardio for that portion of the work out and Wade had some interesting new machines for us to try...lol...But I made it thru with only a few slight distractions. :) But I did find out that Wade missed the Sassy me that was missing on Tuesday when my hormones acted all flaky. I knew he would. I know I can be a difficult whiney bitch when I work out...OK...probably more often than that...but my playful banter and arguing is greatly missed when it's not there. He said he was seriously scared of me cos evidently only Bitch was shining through. LMSAO!
So we are thinking now that we will do one more month with Wade...and then go to just a gym membership. It's really been helpful lately and I think I still need the structure of a personal trainer. We're gonna try an experiment and go away from the supplements that we were buying from the doctor's office. I just can't say for sure they were worth ALL the money that we were paying for them...plus all our other vitamins on top of that...I think we already had a good handle on what vitamins we needed. I think the only one I may miss is the shot one...but not sure I'll even miss that. We'll play it by ear and see...cos that's $300 for 2 months worth of shots for the both of us really...and that's a lot when we have the personal trainer and I think we worked it out and it cost like 30 or 40 bucks per pound I lost...with everything we were paying for and that's factoring Mikey's health benefits in that as well. The Dietician was outrageous on cost for what she was doing for us since we knew what to do...we just needed more supervision...and once a month...sorry...not enough supervision for $100-150 a month...and then $100 worth of supplements a month for the 2 of us and then the shots on top of that...a costly experiment that worked but didn't work. lol I can do this with just the gym and trainer damnit...and our regular regimine of vitamins.
So things are looking good. Down 15 pounds since the end of January...should have seen what my starting weight was in late December...maybe I'll call and see if they can tell me that over the phone...and to think that includes the trip to Vegas and everything...I'm on a good stretch...we'll see what other good comes my way... :)
So we have been weighing ourselves every morning at the house all natural with no added weight. I think first thing in the morning is the best...no extra food weight and such. So I had been watching my weight come down. It was exciting. But Monday when I got to the gym and weighed myself before shoes...I was so happy...down 5 pounds since last Monday! Even if that scale weighs me a few pounds heavier than at home...it is later in the day and I do have clothes on...so that could account for the 2-3 pound difference. Then I went to the doc office this morning...and they only show 6 pounds for the month...hmmm...but hey...I'm down 15 pounds in the past two months. Wooohooo! Time for new clothes shopping! My pants are starting to become a bit loose!
Last night we did our normal 45 minutes or so of good cardio. I was proud of Mikey...he's been miserable with allergies and I didn't think he'd be able to play through given the mood and state of mind he's been in all day yesterday. But it seems like as long as he's exercising, eating or sleeping...he's fine. Soon as we quit any of those 3 things...he's miserable again. He's trying a new drug today and so far it seems better. But I burned bout 500 calories on cardio for that portion of the work out and Wade had some interesting new machines for us to try...lol...But I made it thru with only a few slight distractions. :) But I did find out that Wade missed the Sassy me that was missing on Tuesday when my hormones acted all flaky. I knew he would. I know I can be a difficult whiney bitch when I work out...OK...probably more often than that...but my playful banter and arguing is greatly missed when it's not there. He said he was seriously scared of me cos evidently only Bitch was shining through. LMSAO!
So we are thinking now that we will do one more month with Wade...and then go to just a gym membership. It's really been helpful lately and I think I still need the structure of a personal trainer. We're gonna try an experiment and go away from the supplements that we were buying from the doctor's office. I just can't say for sure they were worth ALL the money that we were paying for them...plus all our other vitamins on top of that...I think we already had a good handle on what vitamins we needed. I think the only one I may miss is the shot one...but not sure I'll even miss that. We'll play it by ear and see...cos that's $300 for 2 months worth of shots for the both of us really...and that's a lot when we have the personal trainer and I think we worked it out and it cost like 30 or 40 bucks per pound I lost...with everything we were paying for and that's factoring Mikey's health benefits in that as well. The Dietician was outrageous on cost for what she was doing for us since we knew what to do...we just needed more supervision...and once a month...sorry...not enough supervision for $100-150 a month...and then $100 worth of supplements a month for the 2 of us and then the shots on top of that...a costly experiment that worked but didn't work. lol I can do this with just the gym and trainer damnit...and our regular regimine of vitamins.
So things are looking good. Down 15 pounds since the end of January...should have seen what my starting weight was in late December...maybe I'll call and see if they can tell me that over the phone...and to think that includes the trip to Vegas and everything...I'm on a good stretch...we'll see what other good comes my way... :)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Day 18...pain made me take a break
OK...I've dealt with some pain and soreness in the last couple of weeks...I know I have...but this morning took the cake...and last night too. We got to the gym early again to do some cardio before our work out. I was still sore from the dropping it like it was hot "Deep Clean & Jerk's" outside Monday night with Wade...but I wasn't that bad off...so I got on the elliptical for a good 30 minutes. My first time lasting that long and I was doing interval training. It wasn't that bad. Then we did a bit of a cool down on the treadmills cos the bikes were busy. My mood was doing fine and I was pushing thru just fine...Then Wade came up to get us and I don't know what happened to my mood. Something snapped for absolutely no freaking reason and I was in a pissy mood. A crying mood even. I had to take a break a couple of exercises in to go in the bathroom and have a good cry. And I've still yet to figure out why. Stupid hormones.
So I made it thru the workout without my usual cheery banter. I mean I tried but it wasn't there. I did everything he asked, no complaints, no laughter...no problem. It totally sucked. And I sucked it up and muscled thru every exercise from squats to stepping, to arm work to lower ab pulls...It didn't even feel like it was work half the time. I was in a weird numb place. So we drive home...I'm still emotional and a bit cry-y.
We get out of the car and OMG...my thighs/quads are screaming at me. Before the work out they were merely hollering from across the road...now they are in my ear like a drill sergeant. NOT cool. I try to rest for the evening...Mikey graciously took over some chores that needed doing. And I went to bed early. Hydrocodone and advil really aren't touching the pain...so why bother wasting them. I woke up this morning and could barely move. UGH! Rolling over in bed was pure torture. Walking is questionable. Sitting and standing...OMG the worst. So wrote in to work and took the half day we had off and then called to try to get a message to Wade that he killed me and we wouldn't be coming in today. He obviously didn't get that message so I'm gonna quit trying that route. Need to get the kid's cell phone digits. My mood has not picked up much and all I'm doing today is trying to sleep and eat a ton of protein to help things heal. Had some yummy Tuna fish salad with mustard instead of mayo for "brunch" and we just finished Spinach cooked with Turkey bacon, onion and egg...yummy! I think I'm gonna crash for a while again.
I really need to not have these horrible mood swings. It's not cool and totally unexplainable. :((
So I made it thru the workout without my usual cheery banter. I mean I tried but it wasn't there. I did everything he asked, no complaints, no laughter...no problem. It totally sucked. And I sucked it up and muscled thru every exercise from squats to stepping, to arm work to lower ab pulls...It didn't even feel like it was work half the time. I was in a weird numb place. So we drive home...I'm still emotional and a bit cry-y.
We get out of the car and OMG...my thighs/quads are screaming at me. Before the work out they were merely hollering from across the road...now they are in my ear like a drill sergeant. NOT cool. I try to rest for the evening...Mikey graciously took over some chores that needed doing. And I went to bed early. Hydrocodone and advil really aren't touching the pain...so why bother wasting them. I woke up this morning and could barely move. UGH! Rolling over in bed was pure torture. Walking is questionable. Sitting and standing...OMG the worst. So wrote in to work and took the half day we had off and then called to try to get a message to Wade that he killed me and we wouldn't be coming in today. He obviously didn't get that message so I'm gonna quit trying that route. Need to get the kid's cell phone digits. My mood has not picked up much and all I'm doing today is trying to sleep and eat a ton of protein to help things heal. Had some yummy Tuna fish salad with mustard instead of mayo for "brunch" and we just finished Spinach cooked with Turkey bacon, onion and egg...yummy! I think I'm gonna crash for a while again.
I really need to not have these horrible mood swings. It's not cool and totally unexplainable. :((
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Day 17ish
OK...so this weekend totally rocked...except for all the cold rain and driving in Houston traffic in said rain. So Friday night was totally awesome...WWE Smack Down! I was so ticked that my camera wasn't fully charged and I missed out on some great shots cos of it. I know how to better prepare myself for next time they come to town. We had totally awesome seats in the second row and it was worth every freaking penny! So exciting and OMG Jeff was so much better in person...I was screaming my fool head off like the total fan girl that I am.
Saturday was waking up early and driving to Houston for family photos, which surprisingly was fun. My folks, even though they saw us last weekend...were pretty impressed in the changes they have seen in us. My dad said I was looking pretty spry...not sure what that means. But we took professional pictures for the first time since our wedding and I think they turned out pretty darn good. We then went and got lunch at Pei Wei and we were the only ones that took half our food to go. That felt good to do around them as well. So we got to totally surprise them on a few levels.
There were a lot of things I noticed on Saturday. My thighs are getting a lot firmer, I'm noticing my waist making changes and my endurance has increased a lot. I'm still not sure I'm even getting enough calories to properly lose the weight I wanna lose with the working out that I'm doing. I'm just not anymore hungry than what I'm eating...if that makes sense. It's like I've shrunk the stomach and I eat so regularly, these tiny little snacks here and there...that I never get ravishing hungry...except on a few few occasions.
We had our Cheat Day on Sunday to recover from our partying the night before. I don't even think the McDonald's around here have them but I was shocked to find that in Houston they have what I'm referring to as the low-carb Big Mac...they have Big Mac Snack Wraps....Holy Crapper-doodles! That was YUMMY. And I had a Big and Tasty Audrey-style and we split the fries like usual. Then when we got back into town, we had some Rosa's Tortilla Factory...I only had 2 chicken soft tacos and 2 tortillas with butter and a little honey. So for a Cheat Day...I could have been MUCH worse...I had other things in mind but seriously...I just can't do those things anymore.
So working out this week...we're doing Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday to allow our "friend" Wade a long weekend for Spring Break...aren't we nice? So I tried to be nicer yesterday...go along with everything Wade said without fighting him too much...Mike said I could still have room for improvement there...but I did do everything he said to do...and I didn't argue...much. When he made us go outside and do sideways horses in the parking lot...that's when I told him that I was going to gift him with me doing stairs...but now that we're doing horses...this was my stairs for him. They were easier. But Mike and I were doing them in unison and facing each other...I just feel like I'm trying to play basketball with Mikey and he's guarding me so mean like...it made me crack up. Then our last exercise for the night was graduated sprints...the first time I had 3 speeds like he wanted us to have...after that...I only had 2...it's not the running that gets to me...it's the stopping...on concrete...I have the fear of falling face forward into the pavement...not a cool feeling...so I do what I can, push myself as far as I feel comfy and then move on. I think Wade is cool with that. I'm actually convinced he can't stand me and that I annoy him too much...but I'm trying to get more chipper bout my teasing so he knows it's just teasing...lol
So tonight is another night and even though I'm sore from the deep clean jerks we were doing...basically 15 total "drop it like it's hot" moves...I'll try to be on good behavior. Let's see what he's got in store for us...lol
Saturday was waking up early and driving to Houston for family photos, which surprisingly was fun. My folks, even though they saw us last weekend...were pretty impressed in the changes they have seen in us. My dad said I was looking pretty spry...not sure what that means. But we took professional pictures for the first time since our wedding and I think they turned out pretty darn good. We then went and got lunch at Pei Wei and we were the only ones that took half our food to go. That felt good to do around them as well. So we got to totally surprise them on a few levels.
There were a lot of things I noticed on Saturday. My thighs are getting a lot firmer, I'm noticing my waist making changes and my endurance has increased a lot. I'm still not sure I'm even getting enough calories to properly lose the weight I wanna lose with the working out that I'm doing. I'm just not anymore hungry than what I'm eating...if that makes sense. It's like I've shrunk the stomach and I eat so regularly, these tiny little snacks here and there...that I never get ravishing hungry...except on a few few occasions.
We had our Cheat Day on Sunday to recover from our partying the night before. I don't even think the McDonald's around here have them but I was shocked to find that in Houston they have what I'm referring to as the low-carb Big Mac...they have Big Mac Snack Wraps....Holy Crapper-doodles! That was YUMMY. And I had a Big and Tasty Audrey-style and we split the fries like usual. Then when we got back into town, we had some Rosa's Tortilla Factory...I only had 2 chicken soft tacos and 2 tortillas with butter and a little honey. So for a Cheat Day...I could have been MUCH worse...I had other things in mind but seriously...I just can't do those things anymore.
So working out this week...we're doing Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday to allow our "friend" Wade a long weekend for Spring Break...aren't we nice? So I tried to be nicer yesterday...go along with everything Wade said without fighting him too much...Mike said I could still have room for improvement there...but I did do everything he said to do...and I didn't argue...much. When he made us go outside and do sideways horses in the parking lot...that's when I told him that I was going to gift him with me doing stairs...but now that we're doing horses...this was my stairs for him. They were easier. But Mike and I were doing them in unison and facing each other...I just feel like I'm trying to play basketball with Mikey and he's guarding me so mean like...it made me crack up. Then our last exercise for the night was graduated sprints...the first time I had 3 speeds like he wanted us to have...after that...I only had 2...it's not the running that gets to me...it's the stopping...on concrete...I have the fear of falling face forward into the pavement...not a cool feeling...so I do what I can, push myself as far as I feel comfy and then move on. I think Wade is cool with that. I'm actually convinced he can't stand me and that I annoy him too much...but I'm trying to get more chipper bout my teasing so he knows it's just teasing...lol
So tonight is another night and even though I'm sore from the deep clean jerks we were doing...basically 15 total "drop it like it's hot" moves...I'll try to be on good behavior. Let's see what he's got in store for us...lol
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